Say Goodbye to 2010~

It's coming to the end of year 2010. Nothing much changed compare with last year. The only changes is I am now pre-graduated...and soon need to work in a school which I had thought before I enter University. Seriously, I dun have much feeling of the end of 2010 and awaiting for the new year 2011 to come. For me, it's a brand new year and life still goes on....The same thing going to happen and everything is still going to be the same too! Furthermore, I am sure that I will also be alone for the year ahead. Single nia! So what?! >.<


Went meeting in the morning at school today and then drove down to Time Square with my ji muis! It's always good to have them together and hang out session and the shopping session! I spent a lot. A LOT I really MEAN! Oh well, as long as I am happy with it! :)


Dun have any special plans this year even is Xmas or NYE....just gonna have dinner session with the same girl gangs again!~ I still love to be with them :D


Anyway, I am tired and lazy to write more here already! Last wish of the year : Slim down and stay healthy always! Oh the most important thing is EARN MORE MONEY!!!XD 


Wishing everyone HAPPY NEW YEAR! Stay happy and strong with your family and loved ones.....

Have a great year ahead! CHEERS~ :)

*hope the same to u too!*

Be mine, I only have you for a little while ♥

Be mine, I only have you for a little while ♥

You know you love me...xoxo :)

The end of Degree life!~

Finally finish the last paper of my University Degree life~ It was a tough paper though but what's over is already over! Had farewell party with dearly course mates and friends on Monday and back to Subang on the same night! In a sudden, I dun feel like leaving.... while packing, there's so many flashback and memories in Kampar! My house, my room and everything that I had leave for 3 years. I have feelings too. I seriously miss it already!


Back home and extremely tired. Dozed off to bed while online and woke up early morning for Singapore trip! Had fun with my ji muis. 5 of us staying in The Hive Backpacker's Hotel and went few places such as Orchard, Sentosa Island, Quake Kuey and more places. 2 days 1 night trip. Lots of fun and joy and enjoying although we need to walk from a places to the others. Too bad that the Universal Studio's tickets were sold out. Miss out the chance to get inside. Therefore, we still go in to Sentosa Island and play and look around. First time in my life took the Sky ride and Fun ride. It was scary in the beginning but overall I still manage to overcome it! :)


Staying a night here, I have more motivation to earn more money and desperate to work here! I dun know why. I just too envy of them because we can see peoples using those branded stuff like LV and Gucci! That's my dream! I need to work extremely hard to earn MORE money and get what's in my mind!=D My new year resolution -------- EARN MORE MONEY and SPEND IT TILL THE MAX!!!!! :P


Never shopping much because we are lack of time actually. Just walk to few shops and malls. Got some souvenir to my friends and get myself Charles& Keith's purse! It's RED in colour! My all time favourite! :D Had fun spending time with 4 of them : Kit Mun, Elaine, Eaven and Amanda. Thank girls for the memorable trip with ya all!!!! :)


2 more days to Christmas. No plans yet. Didn't want to go anywhere or celebrate it. Just want to be different this year. Staying alone at home. I used to love Christmas a lot. But now, it was still a phobia for me towards this day! I know I need to overcome it. I know I need to forget it. Give me a little of time. Thank you for asking me out my friend. But this time I seriously want to be alone and stay alone with myself!


Lastly, a belated birthday wishes for the "U"...Happy Birthday! Hope u did have a blast and take care there....No matter what, I am still here supporting you! Dun worry, I am not going to disturb u already. I just hope that I am able to care of you from the bottom of my heart! There's nothing can change my heart for you!~ :)

Here's some pictures we took in Singapore! For more photos views, 

please visit my Facebook page : http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=777155402

5 of us! Eaven, Amanda, Me, Kit Mun, Elaine

Christmas decoration in Orchard Road...

First time in my life entering CASINO! :P

Us in peak of The Merlion, Sentosa Island~

The Christmas Tree outside Universal Studio~

Only get to take this but too bad that we can't get to buy the tickets~

Oh well, we are planning for next year^^

Of cuz, my RED favourable purse from Charles & Keith!!!

Last but not least, souvenir that I had bought~

Hope everyone enjoy this trip and there will surely more and more trips coming up next!!!:P

Can't wait to plan for the next place already~ xoxo

Do you know that?

好想再说一次...

想念你....

People around always ask this.....

That's always one answer in my mind...

Yes I do!

But I would always say NO in front of others...

That's because this is the only way that I could lie to others that I had already forgotten the past........

Therefore, 

I know it clearly in my mind that You are the one that I wouldn't want to give up on it......

How I wish that day would come again......

1 down last to go...

First paper of exam is over! Now left 1 more to go :)


Today's paper was okay ( i think so)....not that confident for getting good result but at least a pass will do....


Went to lunch with the housemates since this will be the last day for Elaine and Me already~ Had fun chit-chatting with them and great time together always~ After that, Sherine accompany me to Ipoh to get my studio photo! Then meet up with Wen Sun and hang out in Ipoh Parade for awhile. Good time with both!:)


I didn't sleep the last night until exam ends and then drive to Ipoh.....I'm feeling sleepy but just dun feel like sleeping!>.< When driving back to Kampar, I am really sleepy already! I almost met an accident few times on the way home. Thank God that I am safe home! I did learn a lesson.....DO NOT DRIVE WHEN YOU ARE REALLY SLEEPY AND DID NOT GET ANY SLEEP FOR THE WHOLE NIGHT!~


Reached home around 8 something. Straight away went to bed and a nap. Woke up in the middle of the night because feeling hungry. Skipped dinner. That's why feeling hungry. Went mamak with Priya and Stacy and now I am here sleepless night again! Didn't study for the next paper today. Gotta work extra super duper hard later already because this is the last paper for my Uni life and I didn't get a good marks for the course mark. A little worry. But still, I really wish everything will be fine and result will be good in the end. :)


Gonna back to my home on Monday already! The number of days staying here is lesser already. I started to miss everyone and everything. Gave my housemate a small gift and they cried. I cried too. I gonna miss them a lot. I gonna miss all the thing here. Anyway, all da best to them in their last semester too! 


Dun feel like sleeping now but what else I can do besides Online? Nah, a big NO to study!:P And I guess the only thing I can do now is............Sleep! Gonna wake up early tomorrow! Good night everyone! xoxo




ps : Opps, btw this is my fav studio photos that I took today!:P

Fav 1 : 

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More pics pls visit my FB! :D ( evil laugh )

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Can't wait to start the exam right now!

I'm crazy already! Can't wait for the exam to start now because most of my friends and housemates are finishing their paper in these 2 days! While my paper will only start on this Friday! :( I am envy of them because they could get to enjoy earlier than me and me cannot join their Taiping trip because of exam on Friday! :(


I am not prepare for everything yet. To leave Kampar soon, I feel weird in a sudden..... I can't believe that I had been through 3 years staying here with all my friends and now is time for us to leave already! I regret for not making more friends and joining more activities here with them. I started to like here. But it's the time for me to leave already!


Nvm, I guess I should have take some days to visit here again! I missed here. I missed the happy and sorrow moments. I also miss those days where someone always came to visit me! It's all a pretty good memories in mind!


Great thing now. It's already 6am in the morning and I am still blogging here. It's just because me and housemates just had our MCD breakfast and drank the coffee! 1 cup of coffee is enough for a sleepless night for me and today I drank 2 cups of coffee! This also explain why I am still here. I want to go to bed. I am trying hard..............

=)

Today is an effective day! I had finish 5 chapter of notes for my HRM!!!! Tomorrow going to start the other subject already! :)


Getting headache with all the words and notes which written by me already.....guess it's time for bed and tml shall wake up early to continue my progress of revision!!!!~ I'm getting excited....yet stress up~ T.T


Not going to think of other matters until the end of my last exam!!!! 10 more days to go and I will be FREE!!!!Time to shout out : " MERDEKA!!!" XD


I know I am going to miss Kampar already....and also the peoples and friends here.....Oh well. this is called as life right? We need to move on to a better place for a brighter future anyway....


And lastly, hopefully no nightmare again this night and hopefully I can able to sleep well~~~ ZZzzZzzzz...... Nites everybody! Sweet dream out there! xoxo

可怕的恶梦....

最近的我不知道为什么总是发可怕的恶梦....梦好可怕.....梦好真实.....梦里的人总是出现熟悉的背影.....熟悉的脸孔.....熟悉的生声音.......而这个人......真的真的影响我很多.......我害怕夜晚.....害怕一个人睡觉....害怕发这个恶梦.....害怕很多很多事情.....我真的不知道应该怎么办才好.....


我知道现在的我在他心中连朋友的地位都没有.....是我一厢情愿.....是我不能放手.....是我自己拿来...是我自己找麻烦.....是我自己不死心.....是我....都是我的错...... :(


考试要到了....我真的没有什么心情读书.....脑里好乱好害怕....我应该怎么样???? T.T


好怀念有你在的时候....好想念有你关心的时候....好想念被你骂的时候....好想好想你........为何你在那儿就那么忍心把我给忘记了呢??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

you really don't care about me,

 do you?

In my mind....

Every time when I know those news or photos related to you...

I will stone for a few minutes...

I dun know why I still feel so sad and emo....

Each and every time I tell myself to be brave....

Unfortunately I still cannot do it!

Yes, I love you more than myself and everyone does....

But U will never know how much I love you here....

At least now I control myself not to find you anymore....

I am living in suffering time....without you beside me anymore...

I know you will never know it anyway...

It's not that important for you...

I just wish you happy...

Happy with your other half...

Happy with your friends...

Happy with your family...

Happy with your job....

Happy with your life...

Happy with your loves one....

I am happy to see you happy...

No, you do not need to know the truth...

And you just need to know that I will keep pretend to be happy in front of you.....

Do not bother about me....

I am all alone myself and I dun need any sympathy....

Thank you and goodbye.

Craziness in me for the first time in my life~

Since back from Kampar on Thurs till today (Mon).....I had spend more than RM1K in shopping~ This is also the first time being so crazy on buying things and couldn't stop myself from buying whatever I want for long......I cannot control myself.....I just wish to go shopping everyday and spend whatever I have!!!! >.<


Get myself many new things from shopping but I guess it's not enough yet!!!! I had not buy any heels or shoes and new handbags yet....Therefore, I still wanna get more cloths and pants for next year and preparation for working life~ I just need more CASH $$$$$$$$$$ !!!!! This month I am really broke....but I still cannot control myself from buying things! Gosh~ I am so called a "shopaholic" from my friends which see know the craziness of hunting everything I want in mind and spending my $$$$$ without thinking on that moment! Hell ya, I dunno what happen on me??? I guess nobody knows and it's hell none of no one business too~


I had many things to write but I am lazy now....Haven't start my revision since back home for few days....I dun feel like going back Kampar again....I just wish to stay here till my exam....but I know I will be dying soon if I stay here till the finals~ No WAY! I just couldn't concentrate and not even want to start my revision at home!!!! So, planned to go back on Wed but I think I am going back on Thurs morning~ Driving alone again. sienness~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


Now, the troublesome matters pop up in my mind..... I dun know how's my future going to be.... I dunno what is the best for me and I dun know which road should be taken! I am really.........CONFUSING!!!!! I wanted to go Singapore~ and I definitely going there once I get any job from there! Earning more and more money will be my first priority~ I just want $$$$$$ so badly!!!!!!!!! :(


Oh btw, the sudden plan on Sat nite is ON! This means that I am going to Singapore the next day after my last paper with my Ji MUis - Eaven, Kit Mun and Sook Man!!!!!!^.^ Can't wait to travel and have fun with them~ This time the plan is Efficient~ Baby, I like it soooooooooo much!!!!! :D


Tomorrow is a public holiday....I guess I shall stay at home and continue with my revision~~~ So, now is the time to bed! Good nights! xoxo

Excited~

Guess what? 


I had started my revision today!!!! Surprisingly right???? I have started HRM for 3 chapters and today is totally a good mood for me to start revision~ Good job to myself! :)


Besides, I am really excited now because I am going to Cameron with my dear housemates tomorrow! 5 of us~ Elaine, Sherine, Stacy, Mandy and Me!!!! ^.^ Hope everyone enjoy it!!! :D


Decided to go back home next week~ and I can't wait it because it's been a month I never go back already~~ Missing my lovely bed and my ji muis~ Gotta catch up with everyone soon!!! :)


It's time for bed.....will update more about the trip and others soon~ Good Night everyone!!!ZzzZzz......

Bad dream again...

Had a bad dream last night again,

I dunno what happen to me these few weeks....

Keep having those bad bad dream which makes me cannot sleep well....

I'm not sure what's the meaning of the dream, 

maybe I should find it out....

But I am sure about a thing is there's a person in the dream...

and every time I will jump up from bed and scare the hell of me~

I am not sure...

Issit the dream will reflects the reality??

I am curious...

Hoping to find out what's happening out there...

But I know I am not that "great" to find it out!~ ):

Well,

I'm just hoping to have a good rest these few days before I need to start my revision~

Gotta work super duper hard for this time already!

Shall continue another time! Ciaoz....xoxo 

My thoughts in mind....

Everything is done and now shall focus on finals already....
Therefore, I am too free to have stupid thoughts in mind again.....

I am NOT OKAY,

but I will BE FINE!

Exam on the 17th Dec and end on 20 Dec....

This week not going home again because I will be going Cameron with my housemates and friends.....

Last sem to be enjoy together with them....

Gonna appreciate the time and I think I am missing the life here already! :)

OH well,

I just hope everything will be fine now

and I can manage my time properly for revision....

and also spend some time together with my friends here!~

X'mas anywhere?

Dun ask me this question...

I guess I gonna be moody again this year...

I wish not too..

but I just can't help it...

It's the 2nd year already....

and I think I am not over him yet!!!!!>.<

Gosh~ I gonna get punch from many ppl already!!!!:P

Nites everyone!xoxo

Finally I'm DONE!!!! XD

Been really busy and serious about completing my FYP for the 2 weeks....and finally I'm done with it and rushing the whole night and I get to finish it today!!!!!!YEAPIEEEE!!!!! XD


FYP is done, assignment is done too....now left 1 presentation and then need to prepare for the finals already! Speaking about finals, aih, I tot I can finish it earlier or what....too bad that my faculty ends the exam very late this time and we gotta wait till the 17th Dec only start our first paper and the second/last paper will be on the 20th Dec..... All my housemates gonna leave me here and go back for holiday that time I guess............ISH......why so unfair this time de? why can't let us end the exam earlier and how I wish to go home right after that??!!?~


It's left 1 month here..... I think I am gonna miss the study time already......gonna graduate already but I dun have the feeling of happy on me.....I am not sure what kind of feeling now....confuse and blur~ Oh well, I just want to graduate and end my Degree here and go back to my home sweet home~~~~~


After everything done, I am not sure what I want to do now.....PPS?lolx.....dun feel like it now~ XD


Well, gonna stop here and prepare for class already! Have a nice day to everyone and I'll update more again!!!~ GOOD DAY TO ALL! :)

Waiting for the impossible???

Had some drinks with the girls again in 20s...This is the 3rd continuously day we went there for drink and dance....For me, I can temporary releasing all my stress and emotion there....those temperament moment that I used to miss a lot....I wanted to feel it all over again....

Frankly, I don't feel happy every time I'm in the club.... I had lots of old memories especially those from the moment we met till we broke up!~ I wanna get drunk....but hell ya, I couldn't.....EVERY TIME!!!!>.< Every time I wanted to persuade myself from stopping and think those unhappy things....I failed again and again....so many times.....I still failed!!!!!!!! Can you know how much it hurts????? Can you know how much I dun wanna let this to happen?????

Life without him is getting hard and tough....I gone through every thing by myself.... I gonna pretend in front of everyone....even to myself....how many times I need to pretend to be strong and stay calm in whatever situation.... I am really tired of pretending.....the smile from my heart is missing since the day you are far apart from me..... I just can't help myself from hiding the truth feeling inside myself~

I tried to convince myself to give up.... I tried to convince myself to let go.....

I failed...

I am just a failure....

and the truth is....

I never want you to go....

How many times I tried to hold on....

How many times I tried to be "thick face"....

How many times I act like a immature kids.....

and How many times I get rejected by you meeting me....

I still choose not to give up!!!!!

I am still waiting....

No matter how long I should be waiting....

I will still wait....

wait till the day you can forgive me and accept me again....

I just wish I can have a 2nd chance....

I just want to be with you...

You're the one that I want all these while....

*hope that you can hear the voice of from my heart*

I will still wait for the impossible.....

Baby, please come back to me~

Hmmmm.....

Exhausted

Tired.

Finally the last mid-term of my university life is over!!!!!!!

Now left 1 assignment, 1 presentation and 1 FYP to be done!~ 

Oh well,

due to lack of sleep yesterday.... I had decide to give myself a night of holiday without continue my FYP...

tml is a public holiday and I shall done with my works~

Exhausted!

Gotta up to bed now.

Good night. xoxo.

忙碌的日子里不忘记.....

亲爱的你,

你知道吗?

在这忙碌的日子里.....

我不曾忘记你....

偶尔想起你....

偶尔想打给你....

偶尔想起我们曾经在一起的日子....

偶尔还是掉下眼泪了....

我一直都没有忘记....

真希望我记得的是考试要考什么而不是你那曾经熟悉的影子....

我没有期望什么了....

只愿你在那儿过的很好....

只愿你在那儿好好照顾自己....

只愿你在那儿偶尔想起我这个朋友....

只原你和她过的很好....

我并没有希望什么....

就只盼望我们何时还有机会像朋友那样出来叙旧.....

哪天....如你想起我这个朋友.....希望你会主动发个小简讯问候我....

这已经很好了...不多....只希望你我还是朋友....

在这忙碌的日子里....

你好像变得比较开心了....

看见照片里那灿烂的笑容....

我想你一定过的很好吧!

此真心祝福你安康和快乐! :)

-你已遗忘的朋友 上-

什么才是值得做的事??

真不知道什么才是值得做的事??

好乱....真的好乱......

救命!!!! :(

什么都不理 , 可以吗???

做人难, 难做人....

真的真的不知道应该怎么样才好???

该帮? 不该帮?

帮了, 自己有很麻烦了...

不帮 , 就被误会....

真的真的没有其他解决方法了吗???

好累, 什么都不想理....

只想一跟人过自己的生活....

和别人相处真的不简单....

真正了解你的朋友又不多.....

到底可以怎么办啊?!

天啊~~~

帮帮我做决定好吗???

真的真的好烦叻~~~~~~~~

ps : 朋友,对不起....

If it's never too late to know that.....

You just walk away and I couldn't make you stay...

With all the lies and excuses...

Therefore, I still hoping you to S.T.A.Y!!!

Sometimes I just dun understand....

Guess I had a break down this 2 days...
My tears keep dropping for so many reasons....
I dun know what I can do anymore....
Mind keep thinking....
I have no idea how to stop it already~
I just dun understand.... WHY!!!!!
I might be thinking too much.... but if the intention at the first place is there.... then I think I am right as what I said..... Else, what is the best reason for it??? 
I'm just not a good daughter, not a good student, not a good friend and also not a good girlfriend to whom may concern.........Somehow, the easiest way to conclude everything which is I AM SO FREAKING USELESS!!!!!!! I'm just a tiny little me which can't even help anyone around me or either help myself.........!!!!!!!GODDAMNIT~~!!!!!!

WHAT A GREAT GREAT DAY!!!!!!>.<

严爵 - 谢谢你的美好

因为我们知道这天终究会来到
所以不计较只要你心可以过得更好
当初爱的是你当我哭时也是你
在我身边让我尝到有被爱的感觉
谢谢你的美好我绝对不会忘掉
虽然那滋味慢慢地慢慢地淡掉
今晚我们见面算不算最后一遍
答应自己不流眼泪
我们在散步我们在残酷心里早预估
谁要说出口谁要当凶手你还是我
我们的全部所有的全部只要再一步
就能够解脱就能够拥有得到自由
请你不要cry like this is a surprise
哭出来only make things更难捱
我的爱并没有改是时间作怪
Girl yo u know that,right?
嘿你把你眼泪擦干
嘿你把你脚停下来
one more step
that's all that we have left
谢谢你的美好我绝对不会忘掉
虽然那滋味慢慢地慢慢地淡掉
今晚我们见面算不算最后一遍
答应自己不流眼泪
我们在散步我们在残酷心里早预估
谁要说出口谁要当凶手你还是我
我们的全部所有的全部只要再一步
就能够解脱就能够拥有得到自由
我们在散步我们在残酷心里早预估
谁要说出口谁要当凶手你还是我
我们的全部所有的全部只要再一步
就能够解脱就能够拥有得到自由

告诉自己要加油!!

告诉自己是时候了....
该放的....也是时候了....
该做的....也是完成了....
什么都做了....结局依然不会改变....
要变的....还是改变我这个笨蛋的想法.....改变自己.....
今天我剪了新的发型....
原因也只想改变自己....
我知道我们再也不可能了....
毕竟这一年没有你在我身边, 从不习惯变习惯....从不能适应到能够适应.....
我一个人吭下自己的问题....伤心时有谁知?不开心时能相谁倾诉?寂寞时又有谁来陪伴?
一切的一切也在你消失时改变了.....
时间到了, 我应该改变自己了.....
不会再让自己进入你和她的世界....
衷心祝福你们~
我....
谢谢你....
我...
对不起....

最后, 只想对自己说:
"加油!加油!加油!!!"

ps : 因为我爱你....所以想你幸福快乐....

EX

我喜欢,不我爱 －严爵

我喜欢你的眼 看着我的眼

我喜欢你的脸 贴着我的脸

我喜欢你的手 牵着我的手

我喜欢你的口 吻着我的口

时间在改变 你不要改变

因为我很爱你

不想要你放弃爱情

友情这段得来不易

我爱你 真的是很爱你 所以想

就这样继续爱下去

时间在改变 你不要改变

因为我很爱你

不想要你放弃爱情

友情这段得来不易

我爱你 真的是很爱你 所以想

就这样继续爱下去

因为我很爱你

不想要你放弃爱情

友情这段得来不易

我爱你 真的是很爱你 所以想

就这样继续爱下去

因为我很爱你

不想要你放弃爱情

友情这段得来不易

我爱你 真的是很爱你 所以想

就这样继续爱下去

Never ask why....

Been very down yesterday because I found out something....I dunno how to describe my mood swing now....really unhappy but I find no one to talk about it!

There's so many "why" question in my mind....but I know I will never get the chance to ask it....Those "why this why that question" will remain forever in my heart....i  suppose.....

Yesterday, I almost gone crazy in a sudden....I saw what I dun willing to see....I met a stranger which looks 90% alike as him.....Am I thinking too much at the sudden time??? I dun know neither....

I am sad. Really sad. Sad of myself. Where time never heal my wounds. Where time never get me well in all these...I just dun understand WHY???

Being the stupid me, I used replacement as him. I am sorry, forgive me please??

I lost my mind and direction....show me the way where should I go now.....

The more I tried to let go, the more i couldn't...

I did want to stay and hold on...

But it will never be the same there......

I am suffering.....

I seriously do......