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Friday, April 30, 2010

The Immature ME

I did something really STUPID this time AGAIN....

When I am standing like a fool.....my mind keep flowing many pictures and I even can hear my Id and Superego fighting between each other.....My Id did want me to stay but my superego keep asking me to stop this stupid action.....Add on, I am also a girl who are very clumsy and stupid....I know how to differentiate the right and wrong but I always want to get the real answer before I give up in doing things......Imagine how both them fighting and finally my Id wins!!! Gosh....this is not a good one!!!~

I know what am I doing....I really know how this stupid react will annoy whoever involve.....but I am really SORRY because I couldn't control myself from all these happens......I tried....to stop myself.....but if fail as I said...my Id occupy it most of the time!!!! *silly me*

I also know that this is how immature myself is.....how many times I gotta disappoint myself and others who always care for me....how many times I gotta make someone angry because of this stupid react....how many times I am just trying to get the attention for that someone???????How many stupid react that I myself also couldn't think that this is what I did for the 1st time in my life....and it is just for a guy who I wanna hold on........Where's the ME who doesn't bother always in the past of my life????Where's the ME who can just let go and go on with life????Where's the Me who will not fall just because of relationship????Where's the ME who can be brave to face everything and keep smiling in front of everyone??????I want back the ME who can just take every single thing as ABC.....I want back the ME who will not become crazy and will not do even a single stupidity things just because of someone who is important nor not......!!!!!

GOSH.....you know how I hate the now ME?????

People outside....please SLAP me and WAKE me from this!!!!!!

I had enough for everything!!!!!!T.T

The only way of calming myself is......???

For now, I really need a counselor or psychologist or even psychiatrist I guess!!!!!><

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

初恋红豆冰 Ice Kacang Puppy Love

初恋红豆冰 Ice Kacang Puppy Love
Watch this movie with my dearie Peng and cousin Jessica yesterday in Sunway Pyramid....

After finish watching this, we definitely love this movie because the story is rather simple and touch....many memories in my mind....still remember the first time how stupid I was when I like a guy who went to the same school with me since kindergarten till form 5!!!~

I still can clearly remember what I did and what had happen between us....too bad to say that we were never been together!!!Guess this is what we called as " fate"...Just like the story of this movie, we once in love with each other but we missed it from the beginning....Till today, I still will think of him and how I wish I can talk back to him.....

Those days.....happy sad good and bad memories....it is still very a deep memory in my mind although it was like 10 years ago???For now, at least i know he is still doing good there....I am happy for him too:))

Thinking back the old days.....I really regret for what I had done....But, I thank all of them for giving me a big lesson and good memory during my childhood....Now, I had learned to appreciate everything that I have in my life....and also the love and care from the one I love!!!~ I know it is quite late to realize everything...but down deep in my heart, I still love and care about him.....No matter what happen....I still thank him for everything....

啊 我会慢慢的想起


Tuesday, April 27, 2010


(via theflightout)
I gotta believe myself that...
Tomorrow will be a better day!!!!
Thank you for those who care for me....
I will not disappoint you guys!!!

Dear you,
You know how much i miss you???
It's neither important for you...
But it's very important for me...
Glad that you are doing good...
Blessed from me always...
As long as you are happy...
I'm happy for you!!!
Thank you~

Love, me.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Random post :P

Happy Belated Birthday, Xying!!!^.P
Went shopping in 1U and had our lunch at Secret Recipe!!!XD
Had a great time with her~~
Keke...Guess where issit???XD
Suppose to be going to "Library" last Saturday....too bad no place....
Ended up in....Century, The Curve!!!*winks*
William, Xying, Me

Well, this is such a very random post that I could think now to kill my boredom in office!!!~ Stay tune, more updates will be coming UP soon!!!XD
Wonder why I so free??
BECAUSE it's my last day working TOMORROW!!!!*hurray*


Tuesday, April 20, 2010

想你就写信 - 浪花兄弟

看你在摇椅上织围巾 一个人在客厅
画面像离家时的风景 我那年的决定
许下的愿望都很好听 泪却红了眼睛
你说想哭就弹琴 想起你就写信
你说爱了就确定 累了就别任性
还记得院子后的风铃 学燕子在飞行
我们俩长大后的憧憬 珍重的话很轻
你说想哭就弹琴 想起你就写信
你说爱了就确定 累了就别任性
你说想哭就弹琴 想起你就写信
你说爱了就确定 累了就别任性
你 听见了吗???

EMO post~

I did something stupid today....
Wth going wrong with me...???
I wonder...
I hate myself!!!!T.T
Why must those memories follow???
Lastly, how good if you are right beside me....
I can't take it anymore!!!!!!DEPRESSION~~~~~~~~

Monday, April 19, 2010

I am sorry that I had break my promise...

These few days I've been not in the mood....Hardly describe the feelings on me....I still laugh and jokes around when I'm with my friend....but I will be myself when I am alone in the room....thinking over the same thing again....

I am sorry to myself because I had break my promise to myself always....I told myself to have a time limit to stop from thinking...but until now I guess I am not recover from that!!!T.T.....I am sorry to myself because my tears still drop when I think back the memories....I am sorry to myself because I still cannot put aside and concentrate what should I do....I am sorry to myself because I still care and I am hurting myself again and again......

These feelings couldn't stop me from thinking about everything....especially the places and memories in my mind....Why can't I be more tough and just let it go????? I am hurting myself....I am also stopping myself from moving forward....I also build a wall towards others who wanna come close to me.....I know I dislike this kind of reaction or action but I just can't help myself from it.....*sob sob*

Back to the emo me....I seriously dislike it A LOT because I know I will be disappointed many of them....How much effort they tried to convince me...How much effort they talked to me....How much effort they trying to make me happy....How much effort they stopped me from this stupid act!!!! I am sorry to all of them because they did give the best but I did not do my best.....what a waste...):

It's been a month I been trying to live in a better life......I really hope all my effort will not be wasted.....I dun wanna live in the past....I dun wanna see all the people around me worry about me.....I dun wanna see the unhappy me....I dun wanna know how great his life is without my exist.....I dun wanna know how am I going to continue my hope and dream without motivation and inspiration from him......I dun wanna know....................

*Sorry, sorry and sorry....because I had a emo post again....
*I can imagine how much I hate the word "SORRY"....

SAVE ME, anyone????

Monday, April 12, 2010

親人- 叮当

親人- 叮当
别打开 礼物的缎带

最初充满期待 最后都腐败
别打开 午夜的电台

而爱 并没有教给我生存
可是爱 让我们变成陌生人

不要吻我 只要抱着我
不要爱我 做我的亲人
把手借我 一天一分钟
不是谁的情人 谁的某某某

就算我 全身湿透透
我也不再被谁 牵着鼻子走
如果我 还握住拳头

而爱 并不如你想的万能
可是爱 连慈悲也没多慈悲

不要吻我 只要抱着我
不要爱我 做我的亲人
把手借我 一天一分钟

不要吻我 只要抱着我
不要爱我 做我的亲人
把手借我 一天一分钟


ps : who's the right and who will be the wrong???

Sunday, April 11, 2010

黄小琥 - 没那么简单

黄小琥 - 没那么简单
没那麽简单 就能找到 聊得来的伴
尤其是在 看过了那麽多的背叛
总是不安 只好强悍
没那麽简单 就能去爱 别的全不看
变得实际 也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单 一久也习惯
不用担心谁 也不用被谁管
别人说的话 随便听一听 自己作决定
在周末晚上 关上了手机 舒服窝在沙发里
相爱没有那麽容易 每个人有他的脾气
过了爱作梦的年纪 轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福没有那麽容易 才会特别让人著迷
曾经最掏心 所以最开心 曾经
想念最伤心 但却最动心 的记忆

Thursday, April 8, 2010

A reminder for myself!!:))

Be strong now, because things will get better.
It might be stormy now, but it can't rain FOREVER~

Monday, April 5, 2010



Eaven, Kit Mun, Karen
My dear dear and Me =)
William and Us!!^,P
Celebrating Vernon's birthday in The Sherpherdoo,Certro Klang. 
Outing with Chiu Yen!!!^.P 

It's been a long long time I did not take pictures.....Dun know why just dun have the mood to take nice pictures....hMmMmm....But, I promise I will take MORE because life is just short and I wanna appreciate every single thing that happens in my life!!!!!*winks*

Working life is really killing me....Therefore, thank you to a branch of friends who willing to accompany me or even bring me out after my work to release my stress!!XD Although it will just be the same branch of friends, but I still love it a lot to hang out with them!!!~  =)

It left 2 weeks to end my training now....but the job load seems to be getting heavier....another last challenging work to be done before I step out and graduate!!!Well, it really tough but I will just try my best in everything....There will be no regrets if I really did my part, right???:P

Life still keeps on going even though it is hard....

Therefore, I still miss him a lot...=(

Give me more time, kay???

Lastly, GOOD DAY TO ALL!!!^.P