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Sunday, November 28, 2010

Excited~

Guess what? 


I had started my revision today!!!! Surprisingly right???? I have started HRM for 3 chapters and today is totally a good mood for me to start revision~ Good job to myself! :)


Besides, I am really excited now because I am going to Cameron with my dear housemates tomorrow! 5 of us~ Elaine, Sherine, Stacy, Mandy and Me!!!! ^.^ Hope everyone enjoy it!!! :D


Decided to go back home next week~ and I can't wait it because it's been a month I never go back already~~ Missing my lovely bed and my ji muis~ Gotta catch up with everyone soon!!! :)


It's time for bed.....will update more about the trip and others soon~ Good Night everyone!!!ZzzZzz......

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Bad dream again...

Had a bad dream last night again,
I dunno what happen to me these few weeks....
Keep having those bad bad dream which makes me cannot sleep well....
I'm not sure what's the meaning of the dream, 
maybe I should find it out....
But I am sure about a thing is there's a person in the dream...
and every time I will jump up from bed and scare the hell of me~
I am not sure...
Issit the dream will reflects the reality??
I am curious...
Hoping to find out what's happening out there...
But I know I am not that "great" to find it out!~ ):
Well,
I'm just hoping to have a good rest these few days before I need to start my revision~
Gotta work super duper hard for this time already!
Shall continue another time! Ciaoz....xoxo 

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

My thoughts in mind....

Everything is done and now shall focus on finals already....
Therefore, I am too free to have stupid thoughts in mind again.....
I am NOT OKAY,
but I will BE FINE!
Exam on the 17th Dec and end on 20 Dec....
This week not going home again because I will be going Cameron with my housemates and friends.....
Last sem to be enjoy together with them....
Gonna appreciate the time and I think I am missing the life here already! :)
OH well,
I just hope everything will be fine now
and I can manage my time properly for revision....
and also spend some time together with my friends here!~
X'mas anywhere?
Dun ask me this question...
I guess I gonna be moody again this year...
I wish not too..
but I just can't help it...
It's the 2nd year already....
and I think I am not over him yet!!!!!>.<
Gosh~ I gonna get punch from many ppl already!!!!:P
Nites everyone!xoxo

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Finally I'm DONE!!!! XD

Been really busy and serious about completing my FYP for the 2 weeks....and finally I'm done with it and rushing the whole night and I get to finish it today!!!!!!YEAPIEEEE!!!!! XD


FYP is done, assignment is done too....now left 1 presentation and then need to prepare for the finals already! Speaking about finals, aih, I tot I can finish it earlier or what....too bad that my faculty ends the exam very late this time and we gotta wait till the 17th Dec only start our first paper and the second/last paper will be on the 20th Dec..... All my housemates gonna leave me here and go back for holiday that time I guess............ISH......why so unfair this time de? why can't let us end the exam earlier and how I wish to go home right after that??!!?~


It's left 1 month here..... I think I am gonna miss the study time already......gonna graduate already but I dun have the feeling of happy on me.....I am not sure what kind of feeling now....confuse and blur~ Oh well, I just want to graduate and end my Degree here and go back to my home sweet home~~~~~


After everything done, I am not sure what I want to do now.....PPS?lolx.....dun feel like it now~ XD


Well, gonna stop here and prepare for class already! Have a nice day to everyone and I'll update more again!!!~ GOOD DAY TO ALL! :)

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Waiting for the impossible???


Had some drinks with the girls again in 20s...This is the 3rd continuously day we went there for drink and dance....For me, I can temporary releasing all my stress and emotion there....those temperament moment that I used to miss a lot....I wanted to feel it all over again....
Frankly, I don't feel happy every time I'm in the club.... I had lots of old memories especially those from the moment we met till we broke up!~ I wanna get drunk....but hell ya, I couldn't.....EVERY TIME!!!!>.< Every time I wanted to persuade myself from stopping and think those unhappy things....I failed again and again....so many times.....I still failed!!!!!!!! Can you know how much it hurts????? Can you know how much I dun wanna let this to happen?????
Life without him is getting hard and tough....I gone through every thing by myself.... I gonna pretend in front of everyone....even to myself....how many times I need to pretend to be strong and stay calm in whatever situation.... I am really tired of pretending.....the smile from my heart is missing since the day you are far apart from me..... I just can't help myself from hiding the truth feeling inside myself~
I tried to convince myself to give up.... I tried to convince myself to let go.....
I failed...
I am just a failure....
and the truth is....
I never want you to go....
How many times I tried to hold on....
How many times I tried to be "thick face"....
How many times I act like a immature kids.....
and How many times I get rejected by you meeting me....
I still choose not to give up!!!!!
I am still waiting....
No matter how long I should be waiting....
I will still wait....
wait till the day you can forgive me and accept me again....
I just wish I can have a 2nd chance....
I just want to be with you...
You're the one that I want all these while....
*hope that you can hear the voice of from my heart*
I will still wait for the impossible.....
Baby, please come back to me~

Friday, November 19, 2010

Hmmmm.....

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Exhausted

Tired.
Finally the last mid-term of my university life is over!!!!!!!
Now left 1 assignment, 1 presentation and 1 FYP to be done!~ 
Oh well,
due to lack of sleep yesterday.... I had decide to give myself a night of holiday without continue my FYP...
tml is a public holiday and I shall done with my works~
Exhausted!
Gotta up to bed now.
Good night. xoxo.

Monday, November 15, 2010

忙碌的日子里不忘记.....

亲爱的你,

你知道吗?
在这忙碌的日子里.....
我不曾忘记你....
偶尔想起你....
偶尔想打给你....
偶尔想起我们曾经在一起的日子....
偶尔还是掉下眼泪了....
我一直都没有忘记....
真希望我记得的是考试要考什么而不是你那曾经熟悉的影子....
我没有期望什么了....
只愿你在那儿过的很好....
只愿你在那儿好好照顾自己....
只愿你在那儿偶尔想起我这个朋友....
只原你和她过的很好....
我并没有希望什么....
就只盼望我们何时还有机会像朋友那样出来叙旧.....
哪天....如你想起我这个朋友.....希望你会主动发个小简讯问候我....
这已经很好了...不多....只希望你我还是朋友....
在这忙碌的日子里....
你好像变得比较开心了....
看见照片里那灿烂的笑容....
我想你一定过的很好吧!
此真心祝福你安康和快乐! :)

-你已遗忘的朋友 上-

Sunday, November 14, 2010

什么才是值得做的事??

真不知道什么才是值得做的事??

好乱....真的好乱......

救命!!!! :(

Saturday, November 13, 2010

什么都不理 , 可以吗???

做人难, 难做人....
真的真的不知道应该怎么样才好???
该帮? 不该帮?
帮了, 自己有很麻烦了...
不帮 , 就被误会....
真的真的没有其他解决方法了吗???
好累, 什么都不想理....
只想一跟人过自己的生活....
和别人相处真的不简单....
真正了解你的朋友又不多.....
到底可以怎么办啊?!
天啊~~~
帮帮我做决定好吗???
真的真的好烦叻~~~~~~~~

ps : 朋友,对不起....

Friday, November 12, 2010

If it's never too late to know that.....


You just walk away and I couldn't make you stay...
With all the lies and excuses...
Therefore, I still hoping you to S.T.A.Y!!!

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Sometimes I just dun understand....

Guess I had a break down this 2 days...
My tears keep dropping for so many reasons....
I dun know what I can do anymore....
Mind keep thinking....
I have no idea how to stop it already~
I just dun understand.... WHY!!!!!
I might be thinking too much.... but if the intention at the first place is there.... then I think I am right as what I said..... Else, what is the best reason for it??? 
I'm just not a good daughter, not a good student, not a good friend and also not a good girlfriend to whom may concern.........Somehow, the easiest way to conclude everything which is I AM SO FREAKING USELESS!!!!!!! I'm just a tiny little me which can't even help anyone around me or either help myself.........!!!!!!!GODDAMNIT~~!!!!!!
WHAT A GREAT GREAT DAY!!!!!!>.<

严爵 - 谢谢你的美好

因为我们知道这天终究会来到
所以不计较只要你心可以过得更好
当初爱的是你当我哭时也是你
在我身边让我尝到有被爱的感觉
谢谢你的美好我绝对不会忘掉
虽然那滋味慢慢地慢慢地淡掉
今晚我们见面算不算最后一遍
答应自己不流眼泪
我们在散步我们在残酷心里早预估
谁要说出口谁要当凶手你还是我
我们的全部所有的全部只要再一步
就能够解脱就能够拥有得到自由
请你不要cry like this is a surprise
哭出来only make things更难捱
我的爱并没有改是时间作怪
Girl yo u know that,right?
嘿你把你眼泪擦干
嘿你把你脚停下来
one more step
that's all that we have left
谢谢你的美好我绝对不会忘掉
虽然那滋味慢慢地慢慢地淡掉
今晚我们见面算不算最后一遍
答应自己不流眼泪
我们在散步我们在残酷心里早预估
谁要说出口谁要当凶手你还是我
我们的全部所有的全部只要再一步
就能够解脱就能够拥有得到自由
我们在散步我们在残酷心里早预估
谁要说出口谁要当凶手你还是我
我们的全部所有的全部只要再一步
就能够解脱就能够拥有得到自由

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

告诉自己要加油!!

告诉自己是时候了....
该放的....也是时候了....
该做的....也是完成了....
什么都做了....结局依然不会改变....
要变的....还是改变我这个笨蛋的想法.....改变自己.....
今天我剪了新的发型....
原因也只想改变自己....
我知道我们再也不可能了....
毕竟这一年没有你在我身边, 从不习惯变习惯....从不能适应到能够适应.....
我一个人吭下自己的问题....伤心时有谁知?不开心时能相谁倾诉?寂寞时又有谁来陪伴?
一切的一切也在你消失时改变了.....
时间到了, 我应该改变自己了.....
不会再让自己进入你和她的世界....
衷心祝福你们~
我....
谢谢你....
我...
对不起....
最后, 只想对自己说:
"加油!加油!加油!!!"


ps : 因为我爱你....所以想你幸福快乐....

Monday, November 8, 2010

EX

Sunday, November 7, 2010

我喜欢,不我爱 -严爵


我喜欢你的眼 看着我的眼
我喜欢你的脸 贴着我的脸

我喜欢你的手 牵着我的手
我喜欢你的口 吻着我的口
时间在改变 你不要改变

因为我很爱你
不想要你放弃爱情
友情这段得来不易
我爱你 真的是很爱你 所以想
就这样继续爱下去

时间在改变 你不要改变

因为我很爱你
不想要你放弃爱情
友情这段得来不易
我爱你 真的是很爱你 所以想
就这样继续爱下去

因为我很爱你
不想要你放弃爱情
友情这段得来不易
我爱你 真的是很爱你 所以想
就这样继续爱下去
因为我很爱你
不想要你放弃爱情
友情这段得来不易
我爱你 真的是很爱你 所以想
就这样继续爱下去

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Never ask why....

Been very down yesterday because I found out something....I dunno how to describe my mood swing now....really unhappy but I find no one to talk about it!
There's so many "why" question in my mind....but I know I will never get the chance to ask it....Those "why this why that question" will remain forever in my heart....i  suppose.....
Yesterday, I almost gone crazy in a sudden....I saw what I dun willing to see....I met a stranger which looks 90% alike as him.....Am I thinking too much at the sudden time??? I dun know neither....
I am sad. Really sad. Sad of myself. Where time never heal my wounds. Where time never get me well in all these...I just dun understand WHY???
Being the stupid me, I used replacement as him. I am sorry, forgive me please??
I lost my mind and direction....show me the way where should I go now.....
The more I tried to let go, the more i couldn't...
I did want to stay and hold on...
But it will never be the same there......
I am suffering.....
I seriously do......

Friday, November 5, 2010

There's no where I can hide....


Thursday, November 4, 2010

对的人 - 戴爱玲

你问在我心中 是否还苦恼
那次受伤 否决了爱的好
谢谢你的关照 我一切都好
一个人 不算困扰
爱虽然很美妙
却不能为了寂寞
又陷了泥沼
爱要耐心等待 仔细寻找 感觉很重要
宁可空白了手 等候一次 真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上 一定会遇到
对的人出现 在眼角
那次流过的泪 让我学习到
如何祝福 如何转身不要
在眼泪体会到 与自己拥抱
爱不是一种需要 是一种对照
爱虽然很美妙
却不能为了寂寞
又陷了泥沼
爱要耐心等待 仔细寻找 感觉很重要
宁可空白了手 等候一次 真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上 一定会遇到
对的人出现
能愿意为了一份爱
付出去多少
然后得到多少 并不计较
当我想清楚的时候
我就算已经准备好
放手去爱 海阔天高
oh~~ya~~
爱要耐心等待 仔细寻找 感觉很重要
宁可空白了手 等候一次 真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上 一定会遇到
对的人出现
爱要耐心等待 仔细寻找 感觉很重要
宁可空白了手 等候一次 真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上 一定会遇到
对的人出现

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Stress-out!

Lazy me. Didn't update my blog for some time already.
Too many things to do.
Too little time I have here.
Nothing much happened recently.
Went back home last weekend and back Segamat visit my grandmother and the other relatives....
Din't drive back home. No car. Sienz. Need to get people to fetch me everytime.
But the good thing is... 
I didn't do stupidity things.
A good success right? (: 
Oh well, btw this week gonna be a super duper hard time for me because I am gonna rush my assignment and FYP already!!! 
Last minute work....as usual....
Btw, gonna celebrate Sherine's birthday in Club 9 tomorrow~
Hope to have a nice week ahead!
Gonna finish up my work this week!!!!
PLS ADD OIL ~ KAREN GOH!!!!

Monday, November 1, 2010

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