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Monday, July 12, 2010

A Song for You and Me..

"I'm Moving On"

I've dealt with my ghosts
and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame,
trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on
I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone
I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on
Dear you, this is an unsent mail from me to you...
 All these days, thank you and sorry for everything that I had done on you, They are right, I know I am not the right one for you. I tried everything and changed myself just because of you...I used to hate people who smokes a lot, used to dislike people always go to club or pool a lot, there's so many doubt and differences on us since the day we together! Because of you, I changed. And for now, I am addicted in all those activities that I used to dislike it a lot. Can't help myself from stopping because all those places will automatically reminds me of you. The night we met each other. It's also the another changes in my life. Never thought that I could ever wait until now because of you. The first time in my life I can feel the love for you compared all my past relationship. Therefore, everything will just be an illusion already. You had move on with your life. You had found a better girl for yourself. You had your career and your happiness. While me here, I lost everything since the day you leave me. Now, I know I had changed to what you used to love a lot. Changed to what I used to hate a lot. I choose to changed to a different me so that I can hoping there's a person like you will appear in my life. The shadows on you always follow whenever I go. Even the night I met a guy who have the similarities with you. My first intention of getting to know him is to give myself another hope again so that I could let you go. Unfortunately, things ended up in the same, And there's something in heart whereby I never dare to tell anyone before. I felt guilty and regret because I treat him as you on that night. I dunno whether I had fall for him or it's just an illusion of you in my mind. There's so many things will just remain unknown anymore. I guess I am tired of everything already. I dun want to be crazy anymore just like last week in Barroom. My first time ever feeling drunk after few bottles of Heineken. The worst ever experience in my life, I am down. I am unhappy. I am angry. I am speechless too. That day someone told me the truth and on that time only I wake up from this beautiful dream. So many days so many months had passed. The trust on you just totally break my heart into million of pieces in that moment. Then only I realize that all these while I been trapped in all your lies and live in suffering because I choose to trust myself even though how hard there's clearly pictures shown on me. Finally, I gotta wake up and move on. I gotta move on even though there's million of unwillingness in my heart of putting down the burden in my heart. I had crazy enough for the past 7 weeks of my new semester already. I know I shall keep everything in somewhere in my heart so that I can continue my journey of my life. There's still many undone work waiting for me already. I am lack of time already. I know I shall go now. And with sincere heart of mine, I hope that you are happy with you new girl and also your life. No worries about me anymore because I need to grow up and be more independent already. I am not going to let myself depend on you anymore. Dear you, I am sorry and thank you for all the good and bad memories. You know how much I love you. You know how much I miss you. Therefore, I shall wake up and move on with my life already!!! Baby, take care please!
*this is the best memories you gave to me*
And, this is my favorite pics of all *You and Me*

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