I am sorry that I had break my promise...

These few days I've been not in the mood....Hardly describe the feelings on me....I still laugh and jokes around when I'm with my friend....but I will be myself when I am alone in the room....thinking over the same thing again....


I am sorry to myself because I had break my promise to myself always....I told myself to have a time limit to stop from thinking...but until now I guess I am not recover from that!!!T.T.....I am sorry to myself because my tears still drop when I think back the memories....I am sorry to myself because I still cannot put aside and concentrate what should I do....I am sorry to myself because I still care and I am hurting myself again and again......


These feelings couldn't stop me from thinking about everything....especially the places and memories in my mind....Why can't I be more tough and just let it go????? I am hurting myself....I am also stopping myself from moving forward....I also build a wall towards others who wanna come close to me.....I know I dislike this kind of reaction or action but I just can't help myself from it.....*sob sob*


Back to the emo me....I seriously dislike it A LOT because I know I will be disappointed many of them....How much effort they tried to convince me...How much effort they talked to me....How much effort they trying to make me happy....How much effort they stopped me from this stupid act!!!! I am sorry to all of them because they did give the best but I did not do my best.....what a waste...):


It's been a month I been trying to live in a better life......I really hope all my effort will not be wasted.....I dun wanna live in the past....I dun wanna see all the people around me worry about me.....I dun wanna see the unhappy me....I dun wanna know how great his life is without my exist.....I dun wanna know how am I going to continue my hope and dream without motivation and inspiration from him......I dun wanna know....................

*Sorry, sorry and sorry....because I had a emo post again....
*I can imagine how much I hate the word "SORRY"....

SAVE ME, anyone????