Is just time to say "Goodbye"...

Of all the things                                                          I've believed in I just want to Get it over with Tears form behind my eyes But I do not cry Counting the days That pass me by I've been searching Deep down in my soul Words that I'm hearing Are starting to get old It feels like I'm starting all over again The last three years Were just pretend And I said "Goodbye to you Goodbye to everything I thought I knew You were the one I loved The one thing that I tried to hold on to" I still get lost in your eyes And it seems that I can't live a day without you Closing my eyes and You chase my thoughts away To a place where I am blinded by the light But it's not right Goodbye to you Goodbye to everything I thought I knew You were the one I loved The one thing that I tried to hold on to And it hurts to want everything And nothing at the same time I want what's yours And I want what's mine I want you But I'm not giving in this time Goodbye to you Goodbye to everything I thought I knew You were the one I loved The one thing that I tried to hold on to The one thing that I tried to hold on to And when the stars fall I will lie awake You're my shooting star ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- i am not a good writtier to express my feelings here...i like to use some song's lyrics to express and show my feeling...for now, i am clear of what i can do and what should i do....sometimes is hard to accept that things changed in time but we as human still need to accept and faced it!!!well, as what i know, i shouldn't lie to myself anymore and keep giving chances again....there's no appreciation but only dissapointed!!!how sad how unhappy am i knowing everything afterall is just a LIE!!!! i always dun mean to hide things...so i will just tell about my feeling and all...but....again and again.....things are getting more complex and complicated....i dun really love this kind of situation!!!who will loves it right??? i try to belive in everything and tell myself that what i saw is just a illusion and false situation...i try to convience myselff that everyone deserve another chance as if he/she admit their wrong....unfortunately, im SO SO SO SO WRONG!!!!! lies created everywhere....patient become aggressive....freedom become controlling....how hurts do u know in my deep deep heart???? i guess saying "GOODBYE" is just a best sollution after all!!!even though im not tough enuff to stay strong....i will still let u go and now u have ur FREEDOM!!! i decided to say it and do it for this last last time....which is on my birthday!!!!!!this is the most "special" present for myself that i will actually letting go all those unhappy stuff and prepare to go for another war on the next day!!!!!! at here, i sincerely wish and hope that u will have ur freedom back and do whatever things that u like and u will overcome everything in ur life.....im no longer to be there for u but i will always welcome u if u face any problem!!!"Goodbye to you goodbye to everything I thought i know You are the only i loved The one thing that i tried to hold on to"... THANK YOU AND SORRY FOR EVERYTHING!!!!!!-take care-