I dun even know!!!

I am lazy in blogging recently because lappy spoil already and I am now gotta use my house's desktop!!!!Not really use to it already because too long never really use...><....I dun like it!!!!Now I just want my lappy back!!!!!!T.T

So many work need to be done but I am still hanging in the middle....My holiday mood is not over yet:(....I dun wanna go back to work~~~~~~

Just back from my granny house Miri,Sarawak yesterday night....then my branch of friends came to my house to "bai nian"...and then we went friend house to "bai nian" and yum char session in Station One....after that,gambling in one of my friend's house!!!LOLxx....it's really tired but I enjoy it~~~ It still rather better than I was in my granny house for the past 1 week!!!!!!:P

Today went to my rommy house in Kota Kemuning and YeeYing's house too!!!^.P Happy and glad to see them~~~ Really miss the life in Kampar now!!!kekekeke~ Gals, wait for me to back on June kay???:))

There's so many hidden feelings on me recenlty.....I dun know how to express....I also dun know who to express....I am really depressed!!!!T.T....I need counselor!!!!I need talk!!!!I need........
I am lost in my way.....I am still not strong to move on....I am still weak to face it......
How many times my friends tell me....How many times I need to cover it....How many times I need to pretend....How many times I need to fake.....How many times???How many times??????

Can I have any faster way to heal my craziness?????

ps: can somebody tell me what's on your mind now??

Lost count...good thing or bad thing????

Totally LOST~

lost in what???EVERYTHING i can only say!!!!~

GOOD or BAD???

I dun even know~

I am really gonna CRAZY soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!><

Day 118-120

Went last minute Shopping with dear Peng yesterday after my work.....had Sakae Sushi then shopping time and finally movie "ALL WELL,END's WELL" with Peng and William....then supper with Peng and she overnight at my house!!!Morning went breakfast with her and then fetch her back~~


Happy Chinese New Year and Valentine Day to EVERYONE!!!!!:D


A whole new year, but is still the same old me....


I am not that happy actually....but I just dun wanna ruin other's day!!~


Well, guess I am just not over him....


Anyway, I gonna be strong till the end!!!!!!!!!!!


CHEER UP~


*when i was packing, i saw the V card u sent me last year...and u will never know how much I still miss it*

Day 117

I'm on HOLIDAY mood already....CNY is coming....so SOON!!!!:D


Owh.....I really hope to have a long long holiday now!!~~~~~YIIPPPEEE!!!~~


Tonight a bit siao tim....too tired I guess....so many things haven't done but holiday so soon....how am I able to finish it before FRIDAY??????GAHhhh~~~~


Guess I dun wanna have a emo post today....


SO, I will end it here with GOOD NIGTHS!!!!!!:PP


HAPPY CNY, EVERYONE!!!!^.P

I am really tired already....

Day 116

Tiring day...not enough rest on my rest day....
Went Yum Char with Teacher Wang at SS15, He is one of my tuition teacher which still I keep in touch and also  shares most of my problems every time. We talked and laugh about so many things.....and I am also agree with what he had told me!!!~Thank you teacher for always helping me when I need help!!:))
Am tired now....guess I will continue what I wanna say some other day...><
Good night and Sweet Dream everyone!!!^.P

ps : Good to think but bad to hope!

Day 113,114 &115

Weekends is over~ 
Had a really busy busy busy weekend....work work work...training training n meeting meeting....
Today is my off day....went out with Tze awhile in the morning...then stone at home for the whole afternoon.....Reports also havent do but dun feel like doing it!!!GRrr~~~
I know I am lazy...this is the usual me right???:S:S
CNY is coming....dun really have the feel also.....aikKksss...
最近很不开心....心情也很不好....做什么都不顺利的....到底我是怎么了????:(
昨天有机会见他,可是我并没有很开心....我们也没什么话题的.....这真的是我一直在等待的吗???
我不知道....:S
我还以为见面了自己也会开心点,见面了还可以有那种特别的感觉,见面了会不一样....也许我真的应该接受事实吧....也许我应该面对眼前所看到的事情吧....人变了,心都不在了....还要在挽回什么??
这一次,我没有掉眼泪...只用了平常心对待....我也没有期待什么....所以伤痛也减少了.....该放了....该停止了....我真的知道了....虽然还有不舍得的心情,可是我真的控制自己不再掉眼泪了.....痛在心里...不用被他知道的....也许这是我想这样的保持我们的关系吧!!!~
原来我真的好白痴的咯....
很多话,真的不知道应该怎么说...怎么表达....我真的需要心理医生啦~~~~~~
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~~~~
save me from here, PLEASE!!!!><

Day 110,111 & 112

Few days never update my blog....been really BUSY till no time for it....><

Aih....Weekend is here again, but I realize that I hate it so much!!!!:(

Maybe weekend is the most busier time I gotta go through gua....and I will never have a good time to rest~~~~

Working working working.....now I really can experience those working life......!!!

Nowadays, my life really suck without coffee!!!!!!OMGosh, I am addicted to coffee.....I need it everyday already.....without coffee....i am like a dead fish!!!!T.T.....I dun wanna become like that lar~~~~~

Not enough sleep....not enough rest.....Haih........I somehow dislike my life now......I am envy of others.....Grrr~~~~~~Owh and I miss the others and also kampar's friend!!!!:((

*原来...一切都是我在想多罢了....
*原来...我根本没有存在的余地....
*原来....一切都是一厢情愿....
*原来....还有更多原来....
*原来....我还是很在乎....
*原来....我真的还是放不下....
*原来...我还是那样的伤心难过...
*原来....是你变了而我还原地不动...
*原来....梦醒了就应该醒了....
还有多少个原来是我不知道的呢???T.T

Lastly,
i miss you a lot!!!:(

Day 108 & 109

Monday -
Off day!!!Went Dim Sum with the same gang in Damasara Jaya....but sadly to say that I am SICK!!!!T.T
No appetite for the whole day actually....Just feel so "suffering" to have flu n sorethroat....and fever at nite!!><"
Therefore, I still went out to Pyramid and pasar malam.....bought clothes....shoes.....and also BAG!!*satisfy*


Tuesday -
Working day but today is consider relaxing after 1 month of working....and today get to go home early because supervisor got things to do and we can "curi tulang" a bit lor of cuz!!!!XD Still feel sick but what can I do wor....gotta work lor.....I dun wan extend my internship again ler!!!:))
Hhhmmmm....moody day I can say....I not sure what is the problem but most probably because of some issue I guess!!!Haih...when only I can wake myself up????:S
I am tired enough....really.....speechless!!!!OMgosh........

Day 106 & 107

Saturday - 
 A working day but today finally can back home at 6pm for the first time after working for 1 month....No special feeling.....and yeah Daddy bought us to a Japanese Restaurant for dinner!!!:D
 FFK by someone that she promise to watch to watch "WOOHOO" wif me!!!>< But, my night never ends here....went Yum Char with Jun Boon,William bro and Isaac at Borneo Rainforest~ :P
 Later on, 2nd round yum char with Isaac...and he suggested to go KL!!!!LOLx....random suggestion....random decision.....we went KL " you che ho" (in cantonese)....meaning Makan Angin lor....:D and he surprise me by bringing me to a place that i wanted to go long time ago -- Sky Bar!!! *thank you*

Sunday-
 Went lunch with bro William and Isaac in Sunway "Pan Mee"....and then went Tong Sui!!!The popular place in SS15,Subang Jaya, which is Snowflake!!!~ I love the dessert there a lot~~ *hearts*
 After that, went PYRAMID.....WOW....surprisingly today is SOooOOOo jam whereby we stuck in the car park for almost an hour but we still didn't manage to get any!!!!GrrrRR.....without any patient anymore, he suggest to park my car outside and we can walk to pyramid!!!!!~
 Ish ish....I tot he suppose to accompany me shopping....mana tau at the end of the day, I just bought a pair of heels from Nose and a singlet from MNG.....the so "rich" him bought Adidas sport shoe....clothes from few shops too!!!~I am envy because I didn't manage to get what I want!!>< The jacket I saw in "Kitschen"...OMG....it took me so long for the Queue and finally I gave up to buy it!!!Maybe next time lor :((
 Hmmm....We went a Jap restaurant *again* for dinner.....basically i love jap food a lot so no complains that I had it again today~~~:P
 Then, yum char session with my so called " lost contact kai ko",JB and his GF in Sukumaran in SS 14~~~ and Ya the silly me bang into divider at "some place".....OMGosh.....my car......lucky me nothing happens....><....Maybe I am too tired and not concentrating or focus on driving that time!!:( 
 Tomorrow is the off day again!!!!Gonna have breakfast with JB and his GF....I am gonna be the bright bright "lighbulb" for the couple~~~Then might go for a last minute shopping before I got no time for it for the following days before CNY is here!!!!!Hopefully I can get what I want lor~~
 Talked on the phone with my roomy today...I seriously miss her A LOT!!!!!:(.... I'm sorry that i couldn't be there for her when she facing some problems....Hopefully she can be more brave to face it!!!!Mentally supporting her always~:))
 I also wanna thanks to her because she did help me analyze some problem for me so that I am not so lost.....Although sometimes I might follow what my heart wants me to do, but advice from her will still in my consideration before I wanna do anything!!!!Really thanks to her from helping me so much when I'm not happy!!!!!~~~:
 I'm tired already....tomorrow gotta wake up early for breakfast!!!!!!Good night peoples!!!:D