FINALS GONNA END SOON!!!

Today is another Saturday again...
Been having finals since last 2 weeks....
Tired...Sleepy...Stress....Impatient....Insecure....Broken Heart....Emo....whatever kind of mood....
Finally, i still left of the last paper on Monday and i'll be free!!!!this also means that another Semester has come into the ending....HOLIDAY!!!WOOhOOoo!!!!^.^
Been looking forward to go home because i miss everyone there.....daddy...mummy....him.....Peng...Man...Sun....William.....and others....I really can't wait to go home and have my 3 weeks holiday!!!!!That's lots of plans will be up soon and i hope to meet with my ex-students.....i miss too loads too!!!:(
Oh btw, me and my housemate and also the other friends will be going Cameron before we go back Subang!!!2 Days 1 Night trip to cameron....feeling so excited now and keep thinking of the trip!!HAHA...i hope that we will have a nice trip and relax time after our exam stressor and all!!!:))
HrMmm....something need to be discuss and decision need to be made after i back to Subang...my deadline is near to the ending...but i still cannot find a solution to the problem!!!I dunno what's bothering me so much and make me confuse or stopping me to make a right decision....still thinking and thinking of it.....but i guess i will be able to decide soon bah!~~
Well, i just hate seeing those faker everyday in my life...bothering me and it's really ANNOY me!!!!!!!WTF...no further elaboration because i'm tired and enough of repeating and mention it again and again already.....*die heart*...this is the only thing i can say!!!!><"
nothing else i wanna write here liao...guess is time for me to sleep and wake up early tml to study liao!!!last paper!!!!GAMBATEH everyone!!!!^.^
nitess...*muacks*xoxo

Sometimes I'm Just Wishing....

It's a raining night again...
While I am still FB-ing...
Couldn't sleep yet....
But also cannot concentrate on my studies....
My mind keep thinking...wondering and questioning to myself....
Am I feeling happy with what I have now??
Yeah...I know I should appreciate everything that I have now....but sometimes human are just so greedy....
Whenever we get something,we will expecting more from that....is just like everytime we want to achieve for our goal...I'm happy with now but sometimes I will still envy at others and hoping for a better treatment....
Guess I'm still not good enough for one to put more effort on me....Guess I'm still not up to the standard of being a good girlfriend.....
I always wonder and think....Why all this will not happen on me???
Not to compare anything...but i seriously feel left out....
Maybe this is not the suitable time yet...
Maybe this is not the right timing....
Maybe I'm just thinking too much...
Maybe things are just always like that....
There's lots of questions inside my mind which I dun even dare to ask even a single one....
I know what's the ending...
I know how will it ends...
That's why I choose to ignore and forget....
The more I ignore about it...the more I will think of it....
I just hope things can be like how it used to be...
I just hope things will not turned in a mess or other possible things happens...
I just wish to have more care and love from the one I care...
I just hope to be pampered by someone who care about me....
Not too much...but just a little bit more than now....
That will be enough for what I wish....
Yes...I know I am thinking too much....
But I just have this simple wish and I really hope this is the correct one!!!
Dear,I Love You!!<3
Good night!!!Zzzz...

Life is SHORT...RIP my friend....

I'm kinda shock to know about the news that a friend of mine been passed away this morning....even though i am not that close with him but i feel SAD too....RIP my dear friend....
Life is really short...is just like a friend of mine.....He suppose to graduate as a Mechanical Engineering after this last semester....unfortunately,he met an accident few days ago and now......feel sorry and sad to know that he is leaving us so soon....since the last time i met him....it was few months ago and i couldn't even get a chance to say "goodbye".....
We do not know when our beloved ones will leave us in any time....we might not get to meet or even have a chance to talk to them again before they're gone.....SO, i really hopes that i am able to appreciate   all the people around me who really treat me good and mean a lot to me!!!!i appreciate everything that they had done for me....same to u guys out there.....do NOT cry or regret after a person leave you but please do APPRECIATE what we have now before everything changed....
Dear friend, i am here to send my deepest condolences to your family and hope that u will REST IN PIECE!!!we will never forget your laughter and all the days that we had been together....May god bless you always!!!We will miss you.....

There's many things that i wanna update here!!!:P

It's been a long time i never update my blog with what's happening recently....no emo post for today but it will be some different from the other post because I wanna "ROJAK" all things that happens since the during the study week until today (12/09/09)....

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05/09/09 - 1st day of study week, i went back to Subang which is a "one day trip" to settle for the accident that happens which is the day that me and my frens wanted to back to Kampar!!!(tues i guess..)...well...all i can say...the B***h is wasting my time and finally she cancelled the police report and i pay her RM600!!!WTF!!!*sorry that I’m lazy to repeat the incident again but one thing for sure is NOT my fault!!!*...after settled, went back again to Kampar by KTM with 2 friends and finally reached Kampar around 9pm...

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06/09/09 - nothing special happens and I was being a good girl studying at home with my roommate Elaine and also housemates.....we chat and study....time flies.... :):)

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07/09/09 - can’t recall what I had really done but one thing for sure is I am also studying and chatting at home for the whole day....never even get out from the house during lunch and dinner time!!!But, my lovely roommate cooked for me!!!So kind and sweet of her even though she also need to study for her exam!!!!well, she can cooks delicious food and she know many different kinds of cooking secret and recipe....her bf is so lucky to have her as his gf....*lovely couple*

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08/09/09 - moody day i suppose...didn't sleep well and slept very late....woke up almost 11something....my roommate and I went to TESCO!!!hahaha...when we mentioned Tesco, that means that we are going to eat SUSHI!!!!yeah...both of us ate sushi and then "shop" for some things that can be cooked for the next few days...spent quite a lot in Tesco lah!!!:))

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09/09/09 - today is a good day which there are many couples who get marry on this lovely date!!!HAHA!!!Today also nothing special because still feel stress and moody....talked with him nicely and I hope that he will know what I want and clear with the promised that made by us!!!I’m not sure whether how long our long distant relationship will last....but I do hope that our relationship will not effected even though we are far apart from each other!!!!Well, as what I said I will still faced it even though things are not always going on my way....I appreciate this relationship and hope he is the same!!!

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10/09/09 - today is my friend's birthday-Yee Ying!!!So sad that we couldn't celebrate with her on the day itself....but of course, we do prepare present and small celebration with her when she is back in Kampar!!!!My wishes to her...good luck in exam and always "bee" happy!!!!^^On the day itself, 11.45pm...my classmate asked me to go to G2 whereby a place that we always hang out and study....they had a birthday celebration for me!!!!I’m happy but also feeling a little weird....I wonder what's in everyone's mind nowadays....everyone seems to changed...or can I say maybe i am the one who changed???I admit that i changed...to a person who dislike to social and talk more to people....this semester really learnt a lot....i dun feel like involving in those complicated issues which is not related to me!!!I tend to be more care of myself rather than others...issit because i feel that i am like a fool in front of them????I have many mixed feelings....sad...unhappy...moody....angry....speechless too.....somehow someday i know it will happens....and it finally happens and i can't afford to handle it well!!!Now, I think that it is rather to be more complicated and mess because there are also involve interpersonal relationship and conflicts or neither misunderstanding between each other....no one actually willing to open up and have a talk....wonder how can we settle everything???

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11/09/09 - Today is my 22th BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!Happy bday to ME, Happy bday to Me, Happy birthday to MYSELF.HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KAREN GOH YEE YIING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am finally and officially 22 years old!!!!Nothing to be proud at but feeling sad because getting older and older each year!!!!Well, i would like to thanks everyone for all the wishes no matter in personally, MSN, facebook, friendster or even SMS.....thank you for the bday wishes that actually touch my heart!!!Thanks again to my classmate, roomate, housemate and friends for the celebration and present!!!Love it all very much!!!!Especially thanks to Elaine who also organize a small celebration for me and yee ying in Restaurant "You Kee" which famous of curry chicken bread in Kampar!!!!Thanks for the 2 cakes...thanks for all the people who attended....thanks for the treat for the dinner....thanks for cheering up my day and fill it with wonderful colours!!!!Appreciate it a lot and a lot....for all the surprise and things that u all had done for me!!!!Although every year my birthday falls before the finals, but i still feel lucky enough to have this branch of them who willing to spend their valuable time to celebrate with me!!!!!I do have 3 wishes this year...hope that these 3 wishes will come true soon and everything will be OK and over soon!!!!i nearly burn out and fall down recently because of tons of things that happened...but i also feel happy and proud to have my friends to be there for me....listen to me and care and advice me!!!!Had a great day :):)

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12/09/09 - 1st paper of finals --- ABNORMAL PSY!!!!woooow......gonna become crazy after studying this subject!!!went to exam at 9am....after that go to ipoh which suggested by my friend!!!they say wanna release Stress!!!lolx...so 5 of us which is Me,YeeYing,Law,WynKen and Sheryll go to Jusco,IpOH for movie,shopping,makan....keke...we watch "where got ghost" which is a singapore movie!!!quite meaningful from the story....not bad not bad....i rate 7.5/10!!:)) we met Wei Ken and the others which is our classmate!!!HAHA....then i bought something for myself...as my birthday present!!!!well,as a small gift to encourage myself to study hard in this finals....although i can't afford to buy something which i wanted....nah...maybe next time bah!!!SO,after movie,we went to the eat the famous ipoh chicken rice!!!!wahaha.....then walk walk in pasar malam nearby...then come back to Kampar again!!!!a really tiring day because i just slept for  2 hours before the day of exam and then went out for the whole day!!!tired but happy lar!!^^....at nite...mamak again wif my housemates.....love to be together with them because they always make me laugh non-stop....haha....glad to have such housemate also because our house will be always noisy and fun!!!after all the joy and fun....is time to back to my revision again!!!!will update another post soon!!!!!!*muackssssssss*

Is just time to say "Goodbye"...

Of all the things                                                          I've believed in I just want to Get it over with Tears form behind my eyes But I do not cry Counting the days That pass me by I've been searching Deep down in my soul Words that I'm hearing Are starting to get old It feels like I'm starting all over again The last three years Were just pretend And I said "Goodbye to you Goodbye to everything I thought I knew You were the one I loved The one thing that I tried to hold on to" I still get lost in your eyes And it seems that I can't live a day without you Closing my eyes and You chase my thoughts away To a place where I am blinded by the light But it's not right Goodbye to you Goodbye to everything I thought I knew You were the one I loved The one thing that I tried to hold on to And it hurts to want everything And nothing at the same time I want what's yours And I want what's mine I want you But I'm not giving in this time Goodbye to you Goodbye to everything I thought I knew You were the one I loved The one thing that I tried to hold on to The one thing that I tried to hold on to And when the stars fall I will lie awake You're my shooting star ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- i am not a good writtier to express my feelings here...i like to use some song's lyrics to express and show my feeling...for now, i am clear of what i can do and what should i do....sometimes is hard to accept that things changed in time but we as human still need to accept and faced it!!!well, as what i know, i shouldn't lie to myself anymore and keep giving chances again....there's no appreciation but only dissapointed!!!how sad how unhappy am i knowing everything afterall is just a LIE!!!! i always dun mean to hide things...so i will just tell about my feeling and all...but....again and again.....things are getting more complex and complicated....i dun really love this kind of situation!!!who will loves it right??? i try to belive in everything and tell myself that what i saw is just a illusion and false situation...i try to convience myselff that everyone deserve another chance as if he/she admit their wrong....unfortunately, im SO SO SO SO WRONG!!!!! lies created everywhere....patient become aggressive....freedom become controlling....how hurts do u know in my deep deep heart???? i guess saying "GOODBYE" is just a best sollution after all!!!even though im not tough enuff to stay strong....i will still let u go and now u have ur FREEDOM!!! i decided to say it and do it for this last last time....which is on my birthday!!!!!!this is the most "special" present for myself that i will actually letting go all those unhappy stuff and prepare to go for another war on the next day!!!!!! at here, i sincerely wish and hope that u will have ur freedom back and do whatever things that u like and u will overcome everything in ur life.....im no longer to be there for u but i will always welcome u if u face any problem!!!"Goodbye to you goodbye to everything I thought i know You are the only i loved The one thing that i tried to hold on to"... THANK YOU AND SORRY FOR EVERYTHING!!!!!!-take care-

just too unlucky for it.....T_T

WTF!!!!!
really unlucky month....

spoiled all my mood to study and also my bday mood.....

HAIHzZz.....

my bday present....T.T....gone liao....fly liao....

i dunno how to express my feeling here...too many things happened liao in a sudden!!!!

i just wish....

HAIHZz....

my bday wish is I WANT TO PASS ALL THE SUB FOR THIS SEM!!!!!!!!!!

study study study!!!!

i need motivation!!!!!!!!

guys,

study hard n gambateh!!!!!!