In search of my L.I.F.E!!!

After so many weeks, finally I am able to stand up and go on with my life....
It still hard for me but at least I did try my best...
No regrets, no looking back, no stopping myself from doing whatever I like....
My friends says that I look happier recently~ It will be a good start right???:D
Well, 2 more weeks till end of internship....really can't wait to take a break and finish my final report and thesis!!!~ ISHhhh.... I shall not be so LAZY and last minute anymore!!!*praying*
I had met many new friends and old friends recently....Thanks to all who always there for me when I need accompany....really appreciate it a lot!!!:))
Last but not least,
I am gonna search for my own LIFE....Be happy go lucky....Be the one who can understand people....Be the one who needs me....Be the one who appreciate what I did....Be the one who is caring and lovely....Be the one to whom will appreciate me....Be perfect for everyone!!!!~:D
Thank you for those who hurts me because you really gave me a BIG lesson to go on....*you know who you are*
Lastly, Congratulation for those who are in a relationship which shocked me:P

APPRECIATE WHAT WE HAVE IN LIFE!!!!

Be THANKFUL!!!^.^

again and again........

I know I shouldn't be so

STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHY THE HELL I STILL BEING SO STUPID?????

I CAN'T STAND MYSELF ANYMORE!!!!

GRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!

The simple msg...

Dear You,
A simple msg make my day....
At least, I am living in a better life now....
Thank you...

Love,

Me 

我想说...

Dear You,

爱情就像舞会

教会你最初舞步的

未必能陪你走到散场

爱情就像听音乐

遇到好听的

就会陶醉其中单曲重播

一秒都不想停下来...

而如今只能随机播放, 等待下一首能让我心动的旋律

等待

记得我曾经对他说 等你是件幸福的事

可是有时候, 无结局的等待让人心碎

这世界上最累的事

莫过于眼睁睁看着自己的心碎了

还得自己动手把它粘回愿型

我不等了

因为我学会了放手

放手...

你很伤心的对我说 我不爱你了...

可是 你不知道 让你飞翔 是我爱你的方式

我的眼泪 落在你看不到的角落

于是 我们的距离 就像一起看日落的影子 拉长了...

曾经尝试逃出你设下的阴影

走了很久 才发现 原来我还走不出这黑暗的迷宫

偶尔触碰到伤口 偶尔也会小声哭泣...

我选择逃避 用尽美丽的童话来掩盖丑恶的谎言

我催眠自己 因为我受不起伤害 你已离我而去...

你送我的礼物 我都舍不得扔

你给我的回忆 我都藏在心里...

偶尔拿出来重温

很无聊的 你的照片存了又删 删了又存回

很自私的 每一天都要你在我脑海里跑一躺

也很愚蠢的 每一天都在你看不到的角落关心你...

对你,其实我还在意...

我们可以重来吗? 可以回到过去吗?

可是我很清楚 我们的生命线再不会遇到交叉点了...

两条不碰面的平衡线 只能隔者远方看你

终究 我们成了彼此的路人甲...

分手后不可以做朋友 因为彼此伤害过...

不可以做敌人 因为彼此爱过...

所以我们成了 最熟悉的陌生人

思念你的我..希望你是幸福的...

Love,

Me  

Leave or Stay

Leave or Stay????

Somehow I should say that I actually do not wish to stay...

Maybe I am not ready or not suitable in that kind of environment...Although i love children a lot, but there is still so many things need to be consider....

I need to give an answer by next week already~~HOW??

Should I stay?

or Should I leave?

What can I do????

This week is the hardest work ever....I gotta work 8 days per week... continuously 8 working days without rest day....

Somehow I think I am gonna break down soon...

Gastric continuously 3 weeks already.....So many health problem due to lack of rest and sleep....

Max 3 hours for sleeping nia...

GOSH~GOODNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know i shouldn't complain...

Oh well,

Good Luck to me loh!!!:))

*finally this is the 1st week*

Unsent...

You know what???

“Forgetting you is like trying to remember someone i never knew.”

I tried really hard...

know NONE A SINGLE NEWS about you...

It is a good start for myself for not stepping in your life anymore...

However,

I still miss you deep in my heart....

Please give me more time and I will be fine by then!!!~

Love,

me

xoxo

Unsent Mail...

Dear You,

Finally we have the chance to sit down and talk about what is on our mind now. Accepting the fact and truth is rather hurting but I am happy to know what you are actually thinking now! At least, now I am choosing to move forward and not going to live in the past.

I have so many things which I haven't get the chance to say out to you. You asked me what I wanted to say. You question me why I rather keep quiet and not talk about what is in my mind. You trying to make it more comfortable but in the same time I choose to escape from the reality. I thought I can be tough enough to handle it but actually I am still weak when I look at you. How many times my tears dropping but I am trying so hard to control myself so that I will never let you see my weakness and know the unhappy side of me decide this tough decision.

There is so many unspoken words in my mind and so many questions in my mind which I want to know the truth. At last, I choose not to mention and bother about asking it anymore. This is because I am really tired now to keep holding this complicated relationship between us. At least, now we are clear. I will work hard to overcome it.

After so many months of working hard to hold on in this relationship, I found myself actually appreciate every single moment being together with you. This is the first time I did so many stupid thing to someone I actually care a lot in my life. I know it is stupid enough but I did it all because I really love you and care for you. Maybe the way we want are different but we did not find a good way to solve it. Well, over means over. I understand.

I choose not to find you anymore because I do not want to disturb your life and also ruin my own life now. Maybe this is the best way for me so that I can stop myself from everything. I know I will definitely regret in decide all these. But trust me, I will do it!

You asked me "Are you good or bad?"....Without thinking much, I can really tell you that you are good to me. Everything you did...I know is all for my own good. I know it is too late for everything, but I thank you for everything you thought me. Sorry for everything I did. Thank you for once being the most important person my life.

Lastly, wishing you all the best in everything!!!Take care~

Love, 

Me

Cry Me Out

Pixie Lott - Cry Me Out

I got your emails

You just don’t get females

Now, do you?

What’s in my heart

Is not in your head

Anyway..

Mate, you’re too late

And you weren’t worth the wait

Now, were you?

It’s out of my hands

Since you blew your last chance

When you played me

You’ll have to cry me out

You’ll have to cry me out

The tears that'll fall

Mean nothing at all

It’s time to get over yourself

Baby, you ain’t all that

Baby, there’s no way back

You can keep talking

But baby, I’m walking away

When I found out

How you messed me about

I was broken (heartbroken)

Back then I believed you

Now, I don’t need you

No more

The pic on your phone

Proves you weren’t alone

She was with you, yeah

Now, I couldn’t care

About who, what or where

We’re through

You’ll have to cry me out

You’ll have to cry me out

The tears that'll fall

Mean nothing at all

It’s time to get over yourself

Baby, you ain’t all that

Baby, there’s no way back

You can keep talking

But baby, I’m walking away

Gonna have to cry me out

Gonna have to cry me out

Boy, there ain’t no doubt

Gonna have to cry me out

Won’t hurt a little bit

Boy, better get used to it

You can keep talking

But baby, I’m walking away

You’ll have to cry me out

You’ll have to cry me out

The tears that'll fall

Mean nothing at all

It’s time to get over yourself

You'll Have to cry me out

You'll Have to cry me out 

Whatever I wanna say...

"I never understood the reasoning for someone to move on from a relationship. It’s not like you are really going to move on. You are just trying to tell your heart to stop thinking about that person every second, every minute of everyday until it finally becomes a routine and you don’t notice it anymore."

Dear You,

Thank you

&

Sorry!

I need to move on...

I gonna be a better person...

but,

You will always in my heart no matter what happen...

I love you~

Love,

Me