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i have no idea what title should i put for this time...because i am confuse and not really sure what should i write here....some mix feelings here....i also dunno what happened to me......

HrMm....this is not a problem that just exist recently....for quite some time already i think....but it never solve before.....i dunno what ways or ideas to solve it...because im CONFUSE!!!!><

i choose to believe....but im wondering and curious and also cannot stop my mind from thinking.....since i choose to believe....why can't i just STOP thinking of everything????i'm sorry but i just can't help to think.....well,i'm really dunno what should i do afterall...

i used to ignore and pretend that nothing happened....but i realize that im kinda depress because i cannot say out what is in my mind and what am i thinking......im afraid to tell out so i choose rather to keep it in my heart!!!!sometimes,i do feel very tired of the same problem already but it never ends.....things seems to happened....maybe im thinking too much....but i wish what i think is not what is happening out there!!!!!!><

im so helpless...im so speechless....after tat day express my feeling to my fren....i still cannot forget everything and also pretend like nothing happened.....i tried really hard to ignore the problem....but unfortunately it seems to "stick" with me whenever i  go.....i have no idea how to avoid it anymore....i'm just feeling so down and upset after i saw that...but.....there's not action or anything taken.....this even make me feel sad and think even more!!!!maybe i just not used to it....and maybe i already break the rules that i had mentioned at the beginning.....to be honest,i cant accept what i had promised....i just cant ignore things happened and things to go on......what should i do????shall i just...ignore or tell the truth???????

anyone have a better answer for me PLS?????T.T