我的坚持。。。

很多时候，真的很认真在想。。。到底我的坚持可以维持多久。。。我真的能那么坚强吗？很多时候真的很想放弃。。。但又很不干心！！我真的很怕自己不能再撑很久了。。。我也是一个平凡的人。。。也很想找一个可以依靠的人。。。真不知道我还要等多久呢？？？：(

Some quotes to Cheer my day up!:)

 

Liesssssssss!!!!!!!

Hey YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! 

PLS READ THIS!!!!!!

I had ENOUGH of all the lies from you!!!!! Pls stop faking and pretending in front of me!!!!!!

Really sick of it!!!!~

STOP it before I am going to tell it to the whole world about it~~~~~ 

U really makes me feel like KILLING!!!!!!GRRRRRR~~~~ 

对你的爱 - 卓文萱

闭上眼去感觉

淡淡的思念就很美

三月的微风

吹过秋 飘过冬

睁开眼去体会

深深的烙印在心田

抬头望着天空

仿佛也飘荡着悸动

回忆在从前

从前只是不完美的恋

过往在哭 曾经在笑

感动只是一种情绪的反复

眼泪在昨天

昨天永远只是一个缺

如果只是如果 我会期待

大声说出来

我想要的爱

睁开眼去体会

深深的烙印在心田

抬头望着天空

仿佛也飘荡着悸动

回忆在从前

从前只是不完美的恋

过往在哭 曾经在笑

感动只是一种情绪的反复

眼泪在昨天

昨天永远只是一个缺

如果只是如果 我会期待

大声说出来

我想要的爱

学着抛开 学会释怀

所有的决定我都明白

爱 应该是要勇敢去追

就不后悔 只要我不后退

真爱将会变的 更美

回忆在从前

相信未来是完美的恋

我不会哭 继续微笑

选择把对你的爱寄向远方

决定说再见

今天将会是最后一天

过去不是永远 明天醒来

最初的期待

我最真的爱

Sleepless night and The nightmare story.....

Sleepless night is my good friend recently....So do the nightmare night.....I couldn't sleep well recently....It seems nothing I should be worrying, in fact the worry is getting heavier and heavier day by day......Guess that all kinds of worries really push me down to the extend that I couldn't imagine already!!!! Sleepless night.....I am really afraid of......The time where people sleep is the time I am always awake.....The time where people awake is the time where I will feel really sleepy.... I dun like this kind of life.... I dun wish to have this kind of life any longer.....

I am out of idea what else I can do so that I can get to an interview again and start working so soon!!!! >.<
Besides, the nightmare story keep repeating almost every night.....Waking up in the middle of the night is the most terrible experience I could have.... I am really sick of this kind of life..... I am really fed up with everything!!!~ Wait, when am I going to have a proper life like the others out there???????

Everything seems to become complicated and difficult already!!!!! I am afraid I couldn't take it any longer......OMG! What the hack happen on me these days?????Is that the sign of getting older???? Aww...I dun want to get any older than before and.......I dun want......to..........leave alone any longer in my own anymore!!!!~~~

Whatever issit.......It's 4.20am in the morning again....and I couldn't sleep again..........Guess I shall take the sleeping pills and go to bed now!!~ :( Good night and good morning world!

Seriously, I am thinking too much....

Of all the things that happened recently.....I guess I am thinking really too much! :(
I dun know is this a good or bad things.... It only seems that things that happened really makes me confused!
I guess this time is too over and too much already....I know I am confused of what action and decision that had been done.... It's been years....And I guess I am the only stupid one who still keeps all the memories and still waiting for hopes and chances in life.... I do feel how hurts to know to truth....I do feel how hurts can one lies and I still need to pretend everything.... BUT I just can't stop myself from doing all the dumb things..... How sad it can be if I am going to tell any one of them out there...... >.<
I remember I promised myself not to cry and tears anymore because of that incident.... Yet, I failed to do that!!!!! I am just so useless!!!!! What's wrong on me??? What is the heck of me being trapped for so long???
Is leaving this place a wise choice for me??? I dun know.... I am really worried...... and I think I had disappointed most of them again this time! I dun know....I dun know what can I do.... I dun want things to turn worst....Can it be better after this????????????????? I really tried hard to make myself busy and occupied my time with friends and do whatever I like.... I think I am really lost control of stopping all these to happen already!!!! :( What can I really do now?????????????
It's 4.30am in the morning and I am not on the bed yet.... INSOMNIA again!!!!!CRAPPPP~~~~~ I can't sleep!!!! I couldn't keep my eyes off and sleep!!!!! Besides, I had also nightmares for few night already!!!!!OMG~~~~~~ What can I do to keep myself have a better sleep at night?????? T.T
I know it's too much crap and bullshit here....yet sincerely....I really want to THANK YOU to someone who can still brighten up my day no matter how bad my day or the unhappy things on me! I guess that so far there's no one who can really cheer me up besides U! :( I appreciate it alot! :)

Too many questions????

Any better way to run away??????? >.< 

I am gonna crazy soon!!!! 

Jar of Hearts - Christina Perri

No I can’t take one more step towards you

Cause all that’s waiting is regret

And don’t you know I’m not your ghost anymore

You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive

And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are

Running around leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You’re gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don’t come back for me

Who do you think you are

I hear your asking all around

If I am anywhere to be found

But I have grown too strong

To ever fall back in your arms

I learned to live half alive

And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are

Running around leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You’re gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don’t come back for me

Who do you think you are

And it took so long just to feel alright

Remember how to put back the light in my eyes

I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed

Cause you broke all your

爱了没 - 卓文萱

问了我们 无数可能 情节像真的

最后时刻 你却想多 我失去天真

心的伤痕 它值不值得 让我期待

更好的人 更多可能

我的幸福 悄悄等待 你的假动作

你的眼神 无法投射 我的爱执著

照着你的剧本退不得 我该如何

我一个人 怎么完成

爱其实让人心动了 又受伤了

我的心跳慌张又伤心着

拥抱的灵魂熟悉却又陌生的

我们的从前不见了

其实疯了 也哭泣了

在梦的尽头我怕你变了

爱不是你说分开就会轻松的

多希望假装真的没事了

我的幸福 悄悄等待 你的假动作

你的眼神 无法投射 我的爱执著

照着你的剧本退不得 我该如何

我一个人 要怎么完成

爱其实让人心动了 又受伤了

我的心跳慌张又伤心着

拥抱的灵魂熟悉却又陌生的

我们的从前不见了

其实疯了 也哭泣了

在梦的尽头我怕你变了

爱不是你说分开就会轻松的

多希望假装真的没事了

心疯了 我哭泣了

在梦的尽头我怕你变了

爱不是你说分开就会轻松的

多希望假装真的没事了

我想我的痛一定会好的