cant sleep..zzz..

OH MY GOD!!!...i dun know wat's wrong wif me now....i cant even have a nice sleep yesterday nite....my mind keep thinking of many many things....haizz....wat happen to me again???!!!
yesterday went pyramid...*KIM GARY* for dinner wif my family....aiks...tot can meet him there...but...TOO bAD n TOO laTE tat...he suddenly msg me n tell me he finished his work n went home liao....zzz....hrm....maybe we dun have fate bah!!...a little disspointed lor because really long long time nv see him liao...miss him so much....especially....these few days...lolx.....i guess....it's because we r getting better right now bah....so...i used to think ALOT...until...i cant concentrate in doing other things!!!...HIS FAULT lar....who ask him sms me 1st wor...lolx...still wanna blame ppl pulak...*doink*...
i still cant really know wat's on my mind now...juz feel confusing n complicated...lolx...sendiri cari pasal i think...xD...maybe...is because....lately got 2 ppl ask me to become his gf ler...i really dun know how to reject them!!!atcually....i DID...told them in a indirectly way....i think they should get wat i mean de lor...but...yet....still....they dun....GIVE UP...zzz....wat should i do??!!!*gosh*....2 ppl wanna me to give them a good answer oso....2 oso wanna me accept them...but seriously....im really SORRY tat...i cant even accept them because im not ready yet..!!!....hrmm...tis is one of the reason oni lar....i juz dun wanna hurt anybody anymore....in my heart...i still missing the person tat i do like all tis year...no one can give me such feeling like he do....unfortunately.....i dun think we got the chance to get back together....but...i still cant accept the others in the same time!!!plz.....forgive me!!!....i know im stupid...but....feeling is the most important thing for me...without dat....it's really hard to maintain a relationship lor...am i correct??.....wondering....hehe...
but anyway,im trying to find a chance to tell the 2 ppl honestly....bout my feeling n wat im thinking bout....althought i know tat they ady know the problem wif me...zzz.....juz hope tat....they will understand me n accept my desicion lar!!!i really dun wanna hurt their feelings....i can understand how does it feel....i experience it myself....so...i dun wanna other ppl to get hurt!!!
hrm....guess this cuming week i should be able to have a chance to meet HIM gua...hope tat we really get to meet each other lar~~^^...ohya...tml gotta give tuition ler...a little scary lar...cuz...im helping my friend for tml n oso tuesday...hopefully everything goes fine n well.....then....after tat....i will have the chance to hang out n shopping wif my friends lu!!!cant wait for tat now....xD....1 more week till school re-open....2 more week till i stop my work as a teacher......now im starting to miss those small lil kids liao.....im affraid tat i will drop my tears on the last day ler....really bu she de them!!!!hope tat next time we will have the chance to meet again....n oso hope they will remember me in their heart!!!=)...
gotta stop crapping liao...kekeekke...
TO BE CONTINUE!!!~
*muAXx*