Keep Holding ON...

     5 more days and i'm going back again...I missed here.....a lot....


     Class gonna start on next week again....result is going to out in this few days...I'm nervous.....if this time i fail, guess i going to say Bye-bye to myself already....I admit i did not do the best for this time, i will take those consequences by not study hard...T.T


      Well, things are not going to be the same anymore... Everything changed...even people around me....I can't stopped them by doing so...I can't even stop a single thing to changed...This time, i am back to my own world and will soon wearing my evil mask again to face everyone...I did not want to think back of those happy days...because i know i am still not brave enough to face it!!


       The strong feeling i am having now is getting lesser and lesser by day and day....Not to say that i changed, maybe is just a symptoms of giving up and let it be...is the faith who decide where i stand and where i going to be...And i will accept everything and start my own live alone again!!!! I'm not going to depend on other people anymore....I'm gonna be independent and face everything by myself!!!! I know it's going to be hard and tough, just give me some time...

      Lastly,明天的我一个人依然会微笑!~

    

害怕

忘

我没有很努力要自己去遗忘

那些和日记一起收藏的过往

孤单在思绪之中变得很漫长

想

我没有很刻意让自己不去想

那些和照片静止的模样

我学着坚强

坚强到不用学着不想

学着遗忘

还是害怕夜深人静时总想起你

还是害怕的不经意听见你的消息

然而当爱已经沉淀得太清晰

当拥有已经是失去

就勇敢的放弃

还是害怕一个人时就很难忘记

还是害怕突然宁愿当初没有决定

然而当爱最后的出口是分离

我会这么相信

走下去

还是害怕夜深人静时总想起你

还是害怕的不经意听见你的消息

然而当爱已经沉淀得太清晰

当拥有已经是失去

就勇敢的放弃

还是害怕一个人时就很难忘记

还是害怕突然宁愿当初没有决定

然而当爱最后的出口是分离

我会这么相信

走下去

忘

我没有很努力要自己去遗忘

遗忘

Happy Children's Day!!!

Its Children's day again!!!!

I'm missing those days...

thinking of those cute little kids....the smile from their faces really makes my day...

I'm missing them too!!!!

SO, definitely i will go to my ex-teaching school to celebrate with them!!!!!!*WINKS*

I'm glad that most of them still can remember me and even keep in touch with me in MSN or facebook....btw,they are just Std 3 but they already started to use msn since Std 1....

Well,wanna wish all the children..."HAPPY CHILDREN's DAY!!!!"

Love u all lots....xoxo

*muackss*hugSsss*

I just need another chance....

Too many things happen and i cant even use any word to describe my feelings...
Finally i fall sick....and yet i dun have appetite to eat and insomnia again...
This is not what i wish for but i just can't control myself from thinking...
This time, i really fall deeply towards him...
For the very first time...i did many stupidity stuff because of him....
For the very first time...i feel so hurt and cannot control myself to do such " thick face" stuff....
For the very first time...i still believe him no matter how hurt am I....
I know i'm stupid and not worth it as what i told my frens...For the very first time i did my choice and decide every single action that i wanna do...without listening what my frens told me...
They are tired of listen and advice me...
But i still not tired of giving up....
What's the wrong with me????
Every single thing that i do i will think of him...
Every single word from him i still can clearly remember...
Every single stuff he wanted or like i still try hard to get for him...
I dun even feel like spending for myself...just because i wanna get something that he wanted...
I know i no need to show off telling everyone how many things i did just for him...
BUT, if i dun say it out....will he know all bout tis???will he even bother to know all these????
I can't care much on what other people think of me and him...
I just wanna do my best...
I just wanna show the sincere and care from me....
Its hard to move on but i am still trying to be brave and stand up....
I can't afford to lose him...
I can't afford to be alone...
I can't afford to go on with my life by myself...
I can't afford to do things without the support from him...
Yes. just think that i'm selfish...
I do not want to care...
I just wanna try to change things and work things out...
DEAR,
I just wanna be with you!!!
I don't want anything but just you!!!!
PLEASE dun leave me alone...

STOP RIGHT NOW...

STOP!!!!!

GOH YEE YIING!!!!!!can you please stop thinking about those nonesense....can you please stop giving hope to youself????

ARGHhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!! I'm GONNA GET CRAZY SOON!!!!I DUN WANNA INSOMNIA TONIGHT AGAIN AND I DUN WANNA SKIP MY MEAL AGAIN!!!!!CAN ANYONE PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS

HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CONGRATULATIONS!!!

WOOOOOHHOooooooooooo
some good good news from Priya today....
guess what???


A-HA....YES!!!!OUR GROUP WON THE 1 MALAYSIA PROPOSAL WRITING!!!!!!!!!


i can't believe that we actually so LUCKY and was selected!!!!this Saturday we will be going to UPM to attend a prize giving ceremony!!!!*great*
i'm so happy...at least our Prime Minister and the country saw our afford!!! we manage to complete it and beat the others!!!:):)


YAhHooooo!!!!can't wait till that day!!!!!gotta be ready for everything!!!:D


THANKS TO PRIYA,ANDREW,FATIN and LAWRENCE!!!!! U GUYS REALLY DID A GREAT JOB!!!!^.^


thanks to our beloved "UTAR" for giving this opportunity too!!=pp

A Love Letter for YOU!!

Dear, Happy 9th Month Anniversary!!!!

Today is the day that i been waiting for before back from Kampar...Been planning and thinking of somewhere to go out with you to have a small celebration and also spending the precious time with you...Unfortunately,you are busy with working as expected and also cannot spend time for me....A little upset and dissapointed at first but i know i cannot change the fact also...that's why i also dun want to mention and tell you to spend time with me....

I'm happy to see you when i'm back here....hence, i also feel sad and worry about you because u been busy in working recently and never have a good rest....Sometimes, i know i'm selfish because i did not think from your view and wanted you to accompany me even though you are already tired after working!!! I admit i do angry at times, but i also feel useless because i can't even get to help you or do something for you...

Been thinking of many many things since dun know what day....been losing the trust and confident being together with you because there's so many things happen between us...Frankly, i used to believe in you in every single thing that u told me...I did not think or worry much that time...but, i also admit that this time....i really feel unsafe and insecure in my heart because i do not know should i believe the truth or follow my own feeling....At many times, i really feel like giving up but i'm not brave and strong enough to do so....I'm not ready to lose this relationship yet but i'm still trying very hard to maintain this relationship between both of us!!!Sometimes, i'm so envy and jealous about others who are so sweet and lovely being together with their partners while i think that i do not have the opportunity to have the same thing like them...But, i know i should appreciate what i have now and not compare with others....I do accept what i need to go through and what i have...

Dear, sometimes i know i complain too much on you...but i also hope that you can know what i feel and think being together with you...I know there is a distance between us and our thinking are not same...Sometimes,is hardly i accept what you do but i do not mind to accept it and think from the positive side!!But sometimes, you do really hurt my feeling a lots...I know if i complain or mad at you...I did not get any benefit from it....That's why i feel unsecured...I feel unsafe being far apart with you....Sometimes you did not understand how i feel...Sometimes i just want to express my feeling to you and hope that you can know what i am thinking....I also hoping that you can share and express a little of your feeling to me...as least let me know what u been thinking....Is really tired for me to keep guessing what you are thinking everyday...:(

After complaining so much, i also feel lucky and happy being together with you...Thanks for the care and love that you gave to me...Thanks for everything u did for me....Thanks for the care that you have for me...Thanks for the understanding when i always complain and sometimes argue with you....Thanks for the one who always be there for me......Thanks for calling me every night...Thanks for accompany me when i need someone....Thanks for all you have done...for the past,present and future.....

Although we cannot see each other everyday...although we cannot spend many time together with each other....I hope the love that you gave me since the day we together will still be the same!!!!I'm just happy to be together with you and also the love that you gave me in this 9 month!!!!I really really hope that it will continue and never stops.............

Lastly, I wanna let you know that I'm really happy being together with you and the effort that you gave to me!!!!!!!!!Thank you for being the special someone and hope you forgive the mistake i had done.....DEAR, I LOVE YOU LOTSSSSSSSS!!!!!!*muackss*

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY and HOPE OUR RELATIONSHIP WILL NEVER ENDssssss!!!!xoxo