什么样的感受~

突然很想写很多很多东西...但是又很懒惰...想用英文来写...

可是用英文又很难表达我想说的东西和表达我的感受....

哎~只好用华语咯....

我觉得自己心里真的很不平衡...天啊....我是怎么了???

今天原本一切还不错的...很多的第一次发生咯....第一次自己驾车到PJ去...第一次自己驾车到Mid Valley...第一次迷路在Bangsar...第一次塞车在Federal Highway一个小时多...第一次在拿IC时遇见"怪叔叔".....

哈哈哈...还真的很多第一次对吧???

感觉还真的很奇怪的...以前的我从来都不喜欢一个人出去的感觉...不喜欢自己看戏...不喜欢自己走街...不喜欢自己吃东西...不喜欢自己去任何地方...不喜欢自己搭巴士...什么都不喜欢自己一个人的....因为自己心里在作怪吧...感觉上一个人做某些东西...旁边的人会取笑自己...怕旁边的人会用异样的眼光看自己...我常常在想...自己是不是心里有问题啊???

*p/s: 我并不是在情绪化啦...只是想表达自己的感受罢了....*

有时,我真的觉得自己很失败...为什么每次都会有口讲别人...

自己却无法办到的呢????每次我都会叫朋友应该怎样怎样...

而轮到自己的时候...什么也忘记了...什么也做不到..

.我真的觉得自己好失败...很没有用...

可是,我真的不想那样的咯!!

很多人都在问我在MSN所写的东西...我....只能向他们说对不起...我无法一一告诉他们....其实并不是我不要很他们解释啦...也许也是心里在作怪啦...我怕......万一告诉他们后...他们会取笑我啦...我竟然为了一些无聊的人而弄到自己不开心....那又何苦,对吗???这些话我已经听到厌倦啦....我也不想那样白痴的啊...可是我的头脑偏偏不听话....喜欢胡思乱想嘛!!!原谅我,好吗???

我承认自己天生就爱想太多啦...什么都往不好的方向想....那是因为我很怕失败啊...跌到了再爬起来虽然不难,但是...我真的很怕..很怕...很怕...有谁真正知道这些年来我跌到了多少次...有谁知道我所遇到的问题呢~为什么我会有那样的多心...都是因为我害怕再跌到啊~~

哎...夜晚了....又睡不着的心情还真的很难受...累了,却不能休息....

有些东西无法放下...也许时间还是最好的解药吧!!!我相信时间可以证明一切.....

我会默默等待~~

Happy Birthday to "U"...

Nah,just a simple one..

dun really have the mood to write in advance...

feeling tired n boring in the same time...

although working is tiring,but im also enjoyed it!!!

btw,today is my dear Sze Yee's birthday...

wanna wish her "HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY!!"

besides,tml is also a fren's birthday...

i dun have the chance to wish him i guess...

so,i can only wish him here..."HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY"...

suddenly feeling moody...

aikss....

Our Outing...^^

today went out wif dearie peng...wow...cant imagine we can "pou" from morning till 12 midnight...LOL!!!firstly,we went to had lunch in Summit and then watched a movie there..."Twilight"!!!it's a love story...my comment for this movie is NOT BAD...but for those ppl who dislike to watch love story...it might be a little boring...but i can tell u that...the guy is HANDSOME!!!=pp

after our movie...we atcually wanted to walk around Summit because long time never go there already...BUT,i suddenly suggest that i wanna go SING K!!!LOL...then we went to Neway to sing k....geng right???2 hours of singing...really enuff for us and i dun think today im in a good condition to sing...

so,after that we decided to had our dinner...both of us dun feel hungry atcually but scare at nite will hungry...so we went to ss15 to hav a try on taiwan's stlye dish...hrmM...nothing much choice there and the dish i wanted to order no more d...haiz...no mood to eat already lor....just drank a bubble milk tea there...it's not bad lar!!!*i prefer HK's bubble mik tea lar....kinda miss the taste*

after that...we atcually drive around subang jaya and looking for some nice place tat can talk...but we cant even think of a place...><....subang jaya where got such park wan right??XD...so i decided to drive to sunway AGAIN....my 3rd home....=pp...then we went there to take some pics because the decoration there are very nice!!!^^..met may ling n her friend studying in starbucks....chit-chat awhile and my fren called me then ask for yam char!!!LOL...next round...KIM GARY AGAIN!!!Oh GOSH~we really can become VIP of KIM GARY n SUNWAY already...monday just went there had dinner...today went there for supper...ki siao right~~~

although is quite tiring...but i had a great day too...long time never "pou" from morning till night already....getting older n older.....dun hav such energy to do that often!!!XD *opps...too bad sook man is not around...if not we 3 kaki more syok!!!*

this weekend gotta work...in....Carrefour,Subang Jaya.....as promoter lor...start getting nervous already...dunno why....btw,wish me luck lor...=))....do come buy from me if u guys go there!!!^.^

hrMm...kinda confusing and my mind keep thinking n functioning now...i just need someone to talk with....ttyl...nitess......

NICE SONG!!

刘力扬 -- 眼泪笑了

比想象中更痛 你真的没回头

我命令眼泪不许失控

回忆不跟你走 都挤在我心中

我就有责任让它值得被珍重

谢谢你曾让我难过

谢谢我没有想太多

当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了 谁还想哭呢

再勇敢的站着 找回光和热

面对你的时候 我不会舍不得

因为你已是过客 因为路有些曲折

是美的

你眼泪都笑了 谁还会哭呢

来不及完美的 就唱首骊歌

想起你的时候 我不是卑微的

反而我没有遗憾 因为我已爱过你

深深的

心碎成了沙漠 就快开凿绿洲

我没有时间不知所措

你温柔的双手 本就不属于我

又何必在乎它以后属于谁呢

Quarantine

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today went for a training in F&N,PJ...yeah...i got work already...will be working as promoter starting this weekends in Carrefour,Subang Jaya...so today training ar...seems to be a little nervous but happy lar cuz finally i got work mah...got work = got salary right???=pp

i will be promoting for F&N Fruit Tree Fresh....keke...if anyone is interest of buying...come to me ya!!hahaha!!=D...btw,im quite afraid that i cannot hit the target...wish me luck ya!!^^

after that...me,peng n william went to pyramid...AGAIN...lolx..we decided to watch "QUARANTINE"...many ppl said that tis is a nice n scary movie...haha...bingo!!it's really SCARY n DISGUSTING u know....feel like vomiting after tat movie...but i love tat kind of movie...keke...^^...now i wanna watch SAW V lor...waiting for william to borrow his DVD!!=))

today is really tiring...now got few days for me to memorize some info about my job...haha...at least i got something to do now and feel that bored again...=))

btw,is late nite already....gotta go to bed now....nites everyone...Zzzzz.......

难以形容的心情~

周末的心情还真的很复杂~

什么地方也没有去

就只是想在家

不是不想出去..

想想下也没有什么特别的地方可以去..

甚至没有什么朋友可以约...

哎...是我人缘差了吗??还是朋友都有自己的节目呢???

好想找个人聊天也很难的...

我是不是应该检讨自己了呢???

好复杂哦...

到底我又怎么了??

有时候看见朋友有个人陪...真的会很羡慕...

而我....

想找人陪的时候好真的有点困难...

我也好想有个人陪嘛...毕竟我也是个女生啦~~

感觉好像desperate....

不是啦...

真的不是desperate...

只是想找人陪我聊天啦~~

好久都没有那种很舒服的感觉了............

普通朋友 -- 陶喆

普通朋友 -- 陶喆

等待

我随时随地在等待

做你感情上的依赖

我没有任何的疑问

这是爱

我猜

你早就想要说明白

我觉得自己好失败

从天堂掉落到深渊

多无奈

我愿意改变(what can i do?)

重新再来一遍(just give me change)

我无法只是普通朋友

感情已那么深

叫我怎么能收手

但你说

i only want to be your friend

做个朋友

我在

你心中只是just a friend

不是情人

我感激你对我这样的坦白

但我给你的爱暂时收不回来

so i

我不能只是be your friend

i just can't be your friend

我不能做你的朋友

不能只是做普通朋友